hi everyone, my name is nathan. ive been reading through some of the posts and am so impressed by the strengh in this community, especially batgirl. i was just told by my doctor today that i most likely have ptsd although he wouldnt give me a concrete diagnosis. he started me on lamictal and hopefully i can get some counsiling very soon. i used to have epilepsy and it stopped about three years ago. unfortunately i started having other problems like emense stress and anxiety as well as developing new phobias as soon as i stopped taking the medications, which was ironically lamictal. i went about two years without seeing any doctors and without medication and was just barely making it. about two years ago my grandfather died of leukemia and then 5 months later my dad died suddenly. unfortunatly we were at odds and not talking to each other at the time (he was living in texas). i think his death is what put me over the edge because after that i couldnt be around large crowds or deal with stress at all. i lost most of my friends and only have little communication with the few remaining friends. sorry but this is as far as i can go today. thanks for reading.