Angry outbursts

[sorcha]

I seem to have changed lots in the past month, I was quite chilled out/laid back, so much so that most of my boys friends congregated here nightly, now they seem to be asking 'are you okay, you seem different' and I am, I have been feeling myself get more and more down in the past few weeks, I haven't been overly angry today as yet, well okay the dog annoyed me a bit, but my language is terrible (in my head) everyone is a useless Bas***d!

I have my psychologist tomorrow, will see what she has to say or not say, last time she didn't get a word in and kept asking 'so is this the problem' (child throwing training shoes at my head) 'NO I am used to this', psychologist 'so what would you like to work on' I chose sleep, she went to give a website address, she thinks I am behaving overly angry, so she is working on that too... I don't find her helpful, I feel like shaking her and saying 'LISTEN TO ME I HAVE JUST TALKED ON-STOP FOR 1hr 15mins and you STILL DON'T SEE A PROBLEM HERE - make me be quiet please'.

I will hope I sleep tonight and attempt to refrain from shaking her tomorrow :)

 

[Britt.f7]

Sorcha, sounds like your Locum Doc just isn't listening. He should have sent you to a Psychiatrist. At least here in the states they know better then doctors as to what to prescribe for you. Not that doctors can't, mind you. It's just Psychiatrists are trained specifically for that.

Maybe you can get your psychologist on board with that idea and have her write a letter to him.

I hate doctors who don't listen. I have a good team right now. If I ever have to change any of them I will be a mess.

Good luck tomorrow!

 

[sorcha]

Thank you Britt, I am sitting here talking myself out of tomorrow and googling Remeron and how fat I know I will be in 2 months on these pills and it's making me anxious so I need to stop it, forget about the weight gain and walk the dog more, or something, I would like to go to the gym, but gyms scare me for no reason. Doctors over here are difficult to find, I found one and she left the Practice, she is the only Doctor who didn't have me in for 5 minutes - whilst staring the the clock. Most of the locums are useless I need to find a good Doctor, I may try another one who treated my brother, he is manic depressive and he likes her, which says a lot as he likes no-one..

my pharmacists has given way too many diazepam, I told her I didn't want them until Monday (I collect weekly) and she has given me them early so now I need to stop myself from self medicating with them or my moods will be all over the place again

 

[Britt.f7]

I am sitting here talking myself out of tomorrow

I do the same thing, even on the day I'm suppose to have my appointment. Don't skip it, it's important. I think it is a good idea to check out your brother's doctor.

I'll keep my finger's crossed that you get the help you need, quickly! Let me know how it goes(well, only if you want).

 

[sorcha]

Yes, I will try put my Nike head on and 'Just do It'! Silly anxiety all because of a few pills...well 1 nightly.

 

[Whitneys story]

@ Sorcha, Hyland's is a natural product that I think makes a product for tinnitus. You might check on the computer! I am sorry you have so much going on. Are you getting any me time?

 

[sorcha]

Hi there, No I haven't had any 'me' time, I didn't realise this until I spoke to the psychologist today, so I have to find 'me' time daily,stop just buying food for the children and start eating properly also, I suggested a psychiatrist but psychologist said no.... instead she spoke about managing stress and has game a 'thought record sheet' where I have to write down the situation that made me anxious on a score of 0-100% how anxious I feel about 'the situation' the way I feel, my unhelpful thoughts, realistic thoughts and what I could do differently, so I have to do this and also go to several websites and read about relaxing

I have also to do things I enjoy, pampers myself, play music walk more, find a hobby, limit responsibilities, say no more, and use Images I like when I have a nightmare, that was awful, the only 'safe' image I have is of my grandparents, I used 'run away' there lots when younger, they would make me a bed in their livingroom and I would sleep beside a fire going out, I cried at that thought as I miss them so much.

I didn't sleep last night, I tried from 11.00m-3am, was tired of fighting with pillows/duvets etc so woke up finished a full section of my college work, I said I enjoyed this but I have find more to enjoy, psychologist also suggested taking 30mg of Mitrazipine, I explained it was a weekly precsription and I would end up having none in 3 days but she said to do it tonight, so I called GP first to check and sure enough he said no, I explained I was previously on 150mg of amytriptiline and would 'still wake for boys' and was on 45mg of Mitrazpine and 'still wake for the boys' but he said no, he is giving me another tablet named Zopiclone, for 7 nights, to let the 15mg of stupid Mitrazipine that I don't even want to take work. These people annoy me so much, I just told GP 'I haven't slept since Tuesdays 3 hours and I am not tired' but he said to go see him in 2 week....I will now go and google Zopiclone and see what damage they will do to my head!

I will go find what you suggested for Tinnitus. Thank you!

 

[sorcha]

I have found some Hylands over in the UK @ Amazon is it the Defend Sinus one or there are ones with just Hylands x 100 pills (but they don't say what they are for), I also found Hylands Bug busting kit I am thinking it is not those ones.... or teething gel or nappy rash! I think it will be the sinus ones as GP thinks I have had some awful cold and am now left with a sinus problem (this is rubbish I haven't had any colds) but will try anything to make this noise go!

 

[Whitneys story]

Hi Sorcha, Hyland's has a website and 3500 products. When I am on computer I will look. As I believe it is for tinnitus specifically.

Also something I learned was to have a notepad handy to use before going to bed. Write down whatever thought is on your mind.

You have a huge platter of life, maybe you can break things down to plates. Me, family, home, school etc. With all you are trying to process, by organizing you will find what causes the most anxiety. Then you can focus more directly.

Most importantly, Breath! We can not resolve in a day which has likely been years of trapped thought and fear. JMHO, Hugs if you accept them.

 

[Britt.f7]

Sorcha, I found this on the American Tinnitus Association: Link Removed

It is about management of said tinnitus. Very, very, interesting and I am going to forward it to my husband since he deals with it. At night he has a noise machine going just so he can't hear the tinnitus. Anyhow, it has information that I didn't know about the tinnitus. It's a simple list of information. Hope you find it useful. (doesn't mention meds though).

I know the supplement I found was specifically for tinnitus. Hopefully Whitney will find it for you or something similar.

 

[sorcha]

Thank you both, yes hugs are fine. :) I will look at that website now thanks. It is strange how is started, I went to lie down for 30 minutes in my sons bed last week, woke up and my head was full of a swishing noise, very strange.

 

[Whitneys story]

Hi Sorcha, I went to the Hyland's web site and went through all there products. They are not listing a specific for Tinnitus. I searched Google for "Tinnitus natural relief". I found a lot of information but I would recommend your GP do a little better diagnosis. Or see an ear specialist! If this is a newer discovery for you (tinnitus) it could have many causes. I would proceed with caution.

There are too many variables that cause it. Stress being high on the list, also medications can cause it. I did see
an article by Dr Wiel who has some interesting info. He is a highly regarded MD in the US.

"Quietus" is the product I saw for Tinnitus. I recognize the ad. Just want you to be sure you are getting a proper diagnosis after reading everything! :D Whitney