What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

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Feeling very shakey and emotional today. Unable to sleep last night didn't help

 

[amethist]

Today I feel amazingly normal, not a trace of being a PTSD supporter in sight.

We planned to go to a shopping outlet last week, hoping to find a few bargains after the big rush had died down.

We made it and picked up a few things that we had seen months ago, but refused to pay the price for them at the time.

We then went to an American diner for lunch. There was music playing, which for us was a bit loud but we got used to it. Lunch of ribs for Stu {greedy devil had a full rack} a fancy burger for me, it was filling to the point of bursting.

Back home a mug of tea, now he has gone to sleep, shattered but content.

We then had a call to let us know our car will be delivered tomorrow morning.

I am thankful for days like this, as they do not come very often, but are so welcome when they do.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am happy for you Amethist. I know what you mean, about having days like that. I am so glad you had such a wonderful day. We are overdue, but my husband has pneumonia so I think we will be hanging around the house for awhile.


I am feeling a little sad. My husband does not feel good. It is the pneumonia. i will have to do the food shopping by myself. I will have to take the dog for her shots. I do not feel like doing those things. I hope I feel better later on today. I am depressed.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am starting to feel better. I am so happy about this new development. i hope to have a good day. I will be relaxing. I can do things on another day. I feel so much better. Yay for me.

 

[GreenFrog2]

Hurt and alone.

Gentle Hug Medic72 :hug: PS: I am 43 and have a hug pillow - but I love the idea of a teddy bear!

 

[Britt.f7]

I am 43 and have a hug pillow

I'm 46 and noticed I've been hugging one of my pillows for the last month or so.

 

[Springer80]

I never did the workbook to a Courage to Heal but I did read the book. It helped, but I think something like you are doing might help too.

Hi I did the Courage to Heal work stuff, but is rerospecitve stuff. Are you working through your trauma or are you held in a cycle of behaviour caused by your trauma. Perhaps have a chat with your therapist about this. There are more recent books that do exercises based on post traumatic growth such as Beyond Survival. Food for thought. You got to be honest with yourself too, as much as denial will allow, as forcing/wishing yourself forward in the process won't help as much as re-treading old ground for comforts sake. Clear as mud then! I'll shut up.

 

[MouseWedger]

Gentle Hug Medic72 :hug: PS: I am 43 and have a hug pillow - but I love the idea of a teddy bear!

I'm 46 and noticed I've been hugging one of my pillows for the last month or so.

To join in on the numbers/hugs deal... I'll be 25 in February and I still have a teddy! Best part? My husband totally gets it. My bear is under a pillow all the time (Hey - gotta actually look like an adult if someone comes over! Sheesh...) and most nights comes straight out since Anniversary's approach.

 

[Britt.f7]

Are you working through your trauma or are you held in a cycle of behaviour caused by your trauma.

Good question. I read the Courage to Heal 20 years ago when I needed it. Right now I'm looking for something beyond that, more like Beyond Survival. I have been reading a book about people who have gotten beyond their trauma and what it took. Can only read that in spurts.

I want to feel similar to what I did 20 years ago when I first went through all of this. It didn't heal me completely but I felt stronger. There is definitely one part of my life that has not changed that I really want to work on. And, yes, I'm scared to death of entering that. However, what is it they say, no pain no gain? I really don't want to focus on what happened more then I want to focus on what to do with what we know. I can't change what happened. I want to learn how to change how my body and mind reacts.

My therapist is out for medical reasons. By the time I see this new one it will be a month and a half away from therapy. It is beginning to take its toll on me. I wasn't quite sure this last one was working out, though I think she meant well. We'll see. Waiting is the hardest thing, so I need to find something in the meantime. I think I'm going to look up that book you suggested.

I'll shut up.

Please don't! ;):)

 

[Springer80]

To join in on the numbers/hugs deal...

I'm 32 and I've got two, one big and one small (for under the pillow). This is my first time at teddy bears anonymous. :giggle:

 

[GreenFrog2]

And there I was thinking that I was the only "adult" who did this! Am so very pleased to be a part of Teddy Bears anonymous that I will start a thread on this in chit chat - for fun and support!

 

[KatB]

I really dont know. I feel like I spoke so much today, even if it was for less than 20 mins with a few people. I realize my hypervigilance makes me feel super exhausted, as I dont have the patience/energy to talk long on the phone. I easily become impatient and feel out of breath. Is that wrong?

I guess since the New Year started, I am not excited about anything. I know what I need to face and my day in court(case) is coming up soon.
Overall: EXHAUSTED!