Sufferer Survivor Trying To Heal From A Lifetime Of Abuse

[zaniara]

I've been here for a while, but I've been too shy to dare to introduce my self. :shy: It's hard talking about these things, but I've grown to appreciate this website so much! It really is a source of strength and hope for me.

Short about me:

A 30-something women who has been suffering from severe PTSD all my life(as it seems). Grew up with abuse: mental, verbal, physical and sexual abuse. But on the surface it was much like Desperate Housewifes: "A nice family". - as I grew up the fact that I was so messed up led to more abuse in adult age, and I've been striving hard to get a "normal life". Got some help for some of the issues I had: like anorexia, addiction to alcohol(10 years sober now), depression, phobias and big problems with anxiety. Thought I was ok, but was in a very destructive relationship and still fighting to survive!

2 years ago one more crime happened, and I couldn't cope anymore. I decided that I would not give up until I got REAL help this time! So now I'm finally in trauma-therapy and so happy to get this opportunity! Maybe life could be more than just surviving.. I'm starting to believe so! :) I want to LIVE! That's whats keeping me here!

I'm really grateful for this website! (Since I'm from Sweden, English is not my first language, so I might not get it right all the time.. Please feel free to correct me if you like! It's a learning process here.. :) )

 

[safenow]

HI again sweet friend,

I'm glad you decided to share something about you with the people here. I know that you already know the good stuff to found on this site, so I won't tell you to look around. LOL. I'm proud of you for sharing. I know it is difficult to do when you first get here. You are doing really well.

See you around the forum.

 

[Footie freak]

Hi Zaniara, I only joined today, and have already had such kind words of support, I wish I had joined months ago. Anyway,you have already faced and dealt many challenges in your life, so you already have such strength to help you. Enjoy LIVING your life. Will no doubt get to chat again. Good luck

 

[intothelight]

Welcome to the PTSD Forum! :)

 

[KP the nut]

Hi and welcome to the forum.

I am so proud of you for introducing yourself.

 

[nimkekaa]

This forum has provided me with loads of invaluable information and support. I'm sure you will find lots of support here also.

Welcome!

 

[zaniara]

Thank you so very much for your words and the warm welcome! :)

you have already faced and dealt many challenges in your life, so you already have such strength to help you.

Oh.. THANK YOU! I will try to remember those words! And welcome to you too! :)

 

[Toria]

Hello Zaniara - congratulations on all your achievement and accomplishments... and your English seems just fine to me! :)

 

[zaniara]

Thank you Toria! :)

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum Zaniara. :)

 

[Finding Shawna]

Thank you for introducing yourself. I too am 30 something and came from a "good" family so to speak. I can relate to the verbal, physical, mental, and sexual abuse.
Welcome!! It seems that we can all be help to each other!