What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[GreenFrog2]

Feeling numb, frightened and scared. Oh, and alone.....

 

[Philippa]

Sleepy still, calm, physical pain in my right shoulder area (must have slept the wrong way last night?),not looking forward to more pain today with my tattoo being worked on again but looking forward to it being nearer to completion. I feel cozy in my hut looking outside where it looks cold and grey. Glad to be here. Looking forward to more painting today, and getting my creative juices flowing, as well as a hot stone massage later today, before the tattoo. Bit of pleasure before the pain.;)

 

[Philippa]

And it bothers me that I feel nothing. It's literally so close to home, I know people who where literally a few blocks away from the explosions...

And yet... Nothing.

I know this feeling. It's horrible to admit but I was like this when the twin towers came down. I had so much stuff I was processing of my own, and was very traumatized at the time that I literally was so detached from feeling anything. Nothing penetrated that detachment to my emotional world, not even mass murder of that scale. I was aware that it was odd, and I felt weird and bad that I felt nothing, but that's just how I was at the time. I had delayed reactions to that event, where I felt sad and my heart went out to people involved...but at the time...nothing. I'm not from the States though, so it was probably a distance thing and not being intimately involved, but it still disturbed me.

 

[99Phoenix99]

I know this feeling. It's horrible to admit but I was like this when the twin towers came down. I had so much stuff I was processing of my own, and was very traumatized at the time that I literally was so detached from feeling anything. Nothing penetrated that detachment to my emotional world, not even mass murder of that scale. I was aware that it was odd, and I felt weird and bad that I felt nothing, but that's just how I was at the time.

Thank you for sharing that. It's really been bothering me and to see your response really helps me right now. I'm having a rough time but seeing that you can relate, it helps lessen the blow knowing I'm not alone in that sentiment.

Thank you.

 

[Philippa]

I'm glad it helped, and it helped me too to read that someone else has experienced this. I never told anyone at the time, because I thought it made me sound so sociopathic, and that something was really wrong with me. To share it here and now helped me too.

 

[Chincho]

I'm feeling very tired, my night was filled with nighmares again. Also anxious and a bit worthless.

 

[Red Feather]

I'm feeling really proud of myself that I went through with the aerobics training without dissociating, and my face got so red and I sweated so much.

Now I am exhausted. :D:sleep:

 

[99Phoenix99]

I'm in good spirits :)

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling pretty darn good. We as a family have made an newer bigger intergenerational family unit. I celebrate this new thing. I feel so much better about so many things.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

Hyper vigilant. Nervous. Worried. Scared. Frustrated that I feel like this. I hate PTSD. I hate it so much. I wish I didn't get so scared so easily and so often.

 

[rainy_daze]

Tired and stupid. Grateful yet worried. Breathing hasn't been easy the past few days, like someone is pushing down hard on my lungs. It's time to start trying to empty my cup of PTSD stress, I think.

 

[LaurieJ]

I am almost afraid to say that I am feeling great because I'm afraid I'll crash into depression again. But I've put so many things in place for this not to happen. So here I am leaving the house everyday, exercising, and living life. It's a little weird.