Worsening Depression..... Please Help.

[KatB]

My pain has become increasingly discomforting and sometimes, forces me to isolation which makes things worse. No matter where you go or what you do, the pain goes along with you and it becomes an uphill-battle. I just wanted to mention that sometimes, if possible, it's best to go away somewhere for some time. It doesn't erase the situation but allows you to resurface some time for yourself.

 

[The Albatross]

...and go back up on your meds.

If there is the possibility of drug interaction I would not advise going back on your previous dosage without consulting your physician. Your prescribing physician HAS to be involved.

I do not agree with KP or AJK. If your med was reduced because of possible drug interaction I think it's possibly counterproductive to do that on your own.

 

[KP the nut]

If your med was reduced because of possible drug interaction I think it's possibly counterproductive to do that on your own.

Hands up, I missed that - :sorry: Can you speak to your doctor on the phone.

 

[The Albatross]

I'm old school I guess and former medical. I believe in the right person for the right job, and suggesting to another member that they up their dose back to the original amount without consulting a physician is a big no no in my book. I will always advocate for having the discussion with the prescribing physician. I wouldn't want a complication on my head.

I think it behooves us to use extreme caution before screwing with someone else's brain chemistry.

 

[ninja]

I want to echo what was said earlier about physical pain being a contributing factor in depression. I also deal with chronic health issues (mostly controlled through diet), and when my symptoms flare it is as though I've slammed on the breaks and driven in reverse. Are there things you can do that you know help your fatigue and pain? Do your symptom flares manifest in any semblance of a predictable pattern? Mine do and it helps for me to recognize that there is a timeline and things will slowly get better on that front. Is there a friend or neighbor that can help with transportation?

My T told me the other day that dealing with trauma and depression can be looked at through the lens of a person making their way through the mountains/mountain range. To get from one peak to the next we have to traverse the foothills. I like having the visual - somehow it makes it easier for me to see the "other side." However, I don't want to downplay the importance of talking to your doctor...definitely sounds like something needs some tweaking there.

 

[Lionheart]

I'm doin much better this afternoon!!! Believe it or not, I've been spending the day with family and friends, 'working' out in the yard, planting flowers, and hanging out with my baby sister. She is a big support and also understands the ups and downs of depression. She bought me a nice gift and it really cheered me up. It has also helped to have something enjoyable to do, to not be alone, and be armed with so many good suggestions as to how best to deal with things!

It is too late to call my psychiatrist for a medication adjustment today, but I will definitely do so tomorrow morning. I will not be going back up to the original dosage of medicine unless I have the okay from her and what will most likely happen is that, I will be placed on Zoloft (or some other medicine), and taken off of Celexa completely.

I am hoping that she can do this over the phone rather than insisting on seeing me in person as I still do not have transportation....yet. (Once I have insurance on the truck, I will be able to catch up with doctor and therapist appointments). Hopefully I can get treatment for chronic pain and fatigue in the near future as well. I am hanging on to my hope with everything I've got.

I really do appreciate everyone's support!!!! I am returning to basics, watching for negative thought processes, and taking things one small step at a time. It's a huge comfort to know that I can come here and others understand what I am going through and can remind me of the light at the end of the tunnel.

It hasn't hurt that the sun is out and it reached into the upper 70's today. It has been an absolutely beautiful day here, the song birds singing, squirrels playing, the soft spring breeze blowing etc. For today I am soaking it up. Tomorrow may be another rough day (I dunno), but I will get through it with help from my friends.

Ok I am starting to ramble as I am prone to do so, I will stop here and wish everyone a peaceful evening/ good night. Thanks again for sharing your insight and wisdom.

Peace,
Lionheart

 

[intothelight]

LH,

It was good to read your last post and see that things are looking up a bit. Glad you are going to talk to your doctor, and I am glad that you also had support from your family.

Hang in there and it will get better.

:hug:

Deb

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

If there is the possibility of drug interaction I would not advise going back on your previous dosage without consulting your physician. Your prescribing physician HAS to be involved.

I do not agree with KP or AJK. If your med was reduced because of possible drug interaction I think it's possibly counterproductive to do that on your own.

I agree. I was in a hurry and didn't catch the possible interaction. DO call your doctor and see what you can do to stop this spiral down. You CAN and WILL do it! I have faith in YOU!
:hug:

 

[Barberian]

I'm doin much better this afternoon!!!

Glad to hear it. When it gets bad for me I just tell myself "this too shall pass".

 

[Hashi]

I'm glad things have got a bit better.

Can you have therapy over the phone while waiting to get transportation sorted? I've done this when I couldn't make the journey. It helped.

 

[Muzikluvr]

I suppose I just need to be heard.

After decades of fighting depression, I have come to the full realization that I can't handle it alone anymore.

You aren't alone, Lionheart. You are heard, understood, and appreciated here. You demonstrate to each of us, through your posts, how to survive PTSD and Fibromyalgia, et al. This thread is just another example of what to do to survive.

You always seek answers, use your imagination to solve problems, and seek help when you need it. You plan to survive. Survival doesn't just happen. You're doing a great job, Lionheart.

The problem is that depression comes back and it's not your fault. It happens to me too. I can be really happy for awhile, and then one day like a switch was flipped I feel depressed and start trying to solve problems with suicidal ideation. Ridiculous. Well, ridiculous from where I'm sitting now... but when I'm in it, it seems to make sense.

(((((((Supportive hugs))))))))) Remember the times you survived, they are proof that you will survive again.

Wishing you well,
Muz

 

[Lionheart]

During the past 24 hours I have come to realize how important it is for me to have human contact and something (anything) to look forward to. Without these two things, (and medication), I tend to flounder in the shallows of depression and spiral downward.

I realize that I have spent too much time alone in isolation. I have felt stuck in my present situation. The negative thoughts tend to snowball and overwhelm me. I am so happy that I decided to reach out for help.

Yesterday was a good day and I doubt it would have been without all the support I received here. To have your support is a precious gift!!!

I will post more after talking with my psyche doc later this morning and hopefully have something happy to report. Thank you all for making me see that I belong here and that I am among friends.

Blessings,
Lionheart