Sufferer Suffering From Being Abused

[BlueWeepingRose]

Well I'm new here and I'm not sure what to write here as of right now. So far I've been having a really hard time trying to live in the world today cause of what happened to me. Suffered from Childhood abuse when I was a very young child... and I recently got out of three year abusive relationship. At the moment I'm on medication and I know it won't take my pain away all together but there's been really hard times for me lately. Started seeing a therapist recently and it's helping but I need more I believe. It's very hard to get support from others, cause many people simply don't understand with what I've been through. Anytime I mention the abuse... especially to my family they simply don't want to hear about it. Feel like they wish I'd simply move on from what happened and just live my life happily but it seems impossible for me lately. Have a really hard time going to sleep even at night and spend a lot my time on the internet to comfort myself. Right now I feel so lost and lonely and I hate this feeling, I wish I could happier but right now all I feel is sadness. Hopefully I'll find lots of support here & meet others who can understand where I'm coming from. Not sure if this is a good introduction, but I tried the best I could to explain my situation.

 

[SeanCharles]

Welcome to the forum. I know I have found some very nice people here and hope that you will feel comfort here. Introductions can be difficult at first. Feel free to share as much as you'd like. We're all here on our own journey. I know for me, I am facing my own childhood trauma. If you feel comfortable, maybe we can chat sometime.

 

[franciemarnie]

Hi BlueWeepingRose!

And welcome.

This place has helped me no end with so many people working on the same or similar issues, sharing what works, supporting each other. There are great articles in the Help Section and so many healing solutions.

It astounds me how frequently we are told to just move on. As if this is a choice we make to hang onto a tremendously disabling condition that so significantly undermines our well being that sometimes we can barely function. It's like telling someone with MS to just stop it!

Anyway, you are not alone. People here get it.

 

[SeanCharles]

Wow! franciemarnie you are correct! My own mother doesn't realize the damage that was done... Sure she'll have her own issues when she goes to the grave. I on the other hand, however, realize that I need to work through my trauma(s) one by one like the baby steps that I kinda didn't learn the way I was supposed to as a child. (I am quite unique).

 

[Stagetrapdoor]

I just wanted to say Hello. I am also new but haven't posted an introduction.

It takes time to heal and those who want you to rush it are just impatient and ashamed of the truth.

You don't need their permission to take time for yourself .

 

[crazy8]

Started seeing a therapist recently and it's helping but I need more I believe.

Can you as your therapist if you can see him/her two or three times a week as you're getting started in this especially difficult time? I felt the same way and I'm in therapy two times per week and e-mail or phone chat with my therapist a few times a week on top of that.

If you need more, you can (and should) ask for it.

Best of luck in your journey.

 

[Marf]

Welcome! You are right that the general public does not understand. That is the beauty of this forum.

 

[Timto]

Hi BlueWeepingRose,

I am also new here struggling with my own issues. I have only posted my introduction and have not posted anywhere else on this site but I have chatted with a few people now and realize this is a GREAT place to be. I hope it works for you!

Look around at the other forums and use the fantastic people here as they seem to be very supportive. Like I said I am new here but if you need an ear you can message me and I am a good listener.

 

[intothelight]

Hi BlueWeepingRose,

Welcome to MyPTSD forum! :)

I think many of us have heard the phrase: "just move on" and for most people that is what they do; but unless you have PTSD it is almost impossible to understand that "moving on" isn't possible. That is the beauty of this site, in that the members really do understand where you are at and what you are going through.

With therapy, time, and hard work, PTSD does get better and the traumas loosen their hold. Ultimately it is possible to "move on" to a point where the past doesn't color the present.

Wishing you the best.

Debbie