I Have Recovered

[EvenStrongerNow]

I really believe it. I have so much joy and so much peace today and it is consistent.

I stopped therapy and I'm doing so well. When I am triggered, I remember the coping skills I've learned and I can use them effectively and still go about my day.

I know it might seem lofty since it was not that long ago I was riddled in anxiety and fear, but I'm very very excited about this. Basic trust has restored and I have concluded the stages of grief. I have also gotten back in touch with my spiritual life and it feels incredible.

Today, I feel like not only a survivor, but a thriver and I feel victorious. I feel free. And I don't have thoughts like I used to. Thoughts of, "Is this going to last?" is not in my thoughts anymore. :D

Survivor Psalm by Frank Ochberg:

I have been victimized
I was in a fight that was not a fair fight
I did not ask for the fight
I lost
There is no shame in losing such fights
I have reached the stage of survivor and am no longer
a slave of victim status
I look back with sadness rather than hate
I look forward with hope rather than despair
I may never forget, but I need
not constantly remember
I was a victim
I am a survivor

 

[Stanley Shi-Yume]

So wonderful. I feel very proud you've reached that point, and deeply appreciate your sharing with us.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Congratulations on your new healing and recovery. It truly is wonderful. I am so happy for you.

 

[HelenB]

It is so good to read this and I am praying peace and blessings for you.

God bless
Helen

 

[Me Myself and I]

Your post felt like a wave of freshness and positiveness.

Congratulations on your healing! I am very happy for you. :tup:

 

[seedling]

Yipee!

 

[FindingMyself88]

I am extremely happy for you! That gives me hope that one day it will happen for all of us..

 

[billie]

Wow, this is awesome. Well done (((hugs))) :D

 

[The Albatross]

Very happy for you! Loved the Survivor Psalm. New read for me.

 

[shell]

It's good to hear you are feeling great, and have got results from all the hard work.

 

[Philippa]

Excellent. I have reached those points as well in the last 2 years and it doesn't seem to have slumped back into old ptsd ness, though I still have ups and downs, but they are more 'normal' ups and downs these days. And yes, I've also started getting back into my spiritual life again, and basic trust has returned. It's a great feeling.

It is a real victory and I hope you savour it every moment. I'm really excited to see the numbers of people starting to really feel uplifted and back to joyfulness again. Truly awesome.

 

[EvenStrongerNow]

Thanks everyone for celebrating with me! :) :)