Seasounds
Diamond Member
If work isn't stressful enough, I hate how my patterns, and my co-workers' patterns, are compounded by stress of the recent community shootings. Although our initial reactions, on the exterior, is grief, we all harbor what the shooting triggered for us, personally, while we all attempt to keep our cool, professional veneer intact.
Then in real time, back at work, customers and staff are speaking of the event on and off throughout the day. Trigger, trigger, trigger. Per customer request, I needed to get something out of a closet. After walking to the closet, and waiting for a person, to stop talking, and get out of the way, I finally asked her to please move. She responds with anger, as if I was the inappropriate one! Loudly and pushing blame my way, so others can hear, she said, "I was almost done talking."
Then, quicker than I can intervene, my PTSD is deepened. However, this time, within 2 minutes, I did take myself into some EFT, and into positive trait reminders-that turn around the violent message. I reminded myself that I am a good person, that I am a smart person, and (like everyone) I am an important and valuable person. This helped me recoup, better than before. A personal victory, for sure. Yet, I'm still shaking some, having difficulty focusing. Public humiliating, blaming anger, (all my mother's patterns), from others, at work, is a challenge.
I've worked hard to deal with anger coming my way at work. Sometimes i will circle back, and accountably, speak about it to the other person. Right now, at this time, I plan to continue on, reminding myself of my good traits, not be apologetic, and walk calmly, confidently and proudly; letting my carriage be my meta-message to the angry individual.
Your thoughts are welcome.
Then in real time, back at work, customers and staff are speaking of the event on and off throughout the day. Trigger, trigger, trigger. Per customer request, I needed to get something out of a closet. After walking to the closet, and waiting for a person, to stop talking, and get out of the way, I finally asked her to please move. She responds with anger, as if I was the inappropriate one! Loudly and pushing blame my way, so others can hear, she said, "I was almost done talking."
Then, quicker than I can intervene, my PTSD is deepened. However, this time, within 2 minutes, I did take myself into some EFT, and into positive trait reminders-that turn around the violent message. I reminded myself that I am a good person, that I am a smart person, and (like everyone) I am an important and valuable person. This helped me recoup, better than before. A personal victory, for sure. Yet, I'm still shaking some, having difficulty focusing. Public humiliating, blaming anger, (all my mother's patterns), from others, at work, is a challenge.
I've worked hard to deal with anger coming my way at work. Sometimes i will circle back, and accountably, speak about it to the other person. Right now, at this time, I plan to continue on, reminding myself of my good traits, not be apologetic, and walk calmly, confidently and proudly; letting my carriage be my meta-message to the angry individual.
Your thoughts are welcome.
