Sufferer Therapy Writing

[vinny]

So im new and the name is vinny, nice to meet you all . Im a combat veteran and survivor of childhood sexual abuse. Did ten years in the Army along with 750 days in combat. in 2011 i got out and went to college were my ptsd started to rear its head, i ended up being physcotic for a bit. The transition was tough and i ended up becoming disabled due to ptsd/traumatic brain injury. The thing is i know i was molested by a man in a community pool bathroom stall but have not been able to visualize it, i just know if that makes sense. Anyone else know what i mean?
So after three years of meds i feel my mood is managed but probably have 1/3 the energy that i used to. Does anyone got coping tips for the lack of energy due to meds? Also i don't get out much which i know is bad but frankly its more of a comfort thing than fear of the outside world. I still need to get out
i'm pretty numb these days, got into a car wreck the other day and i didn't feel a thing just numb, its freaks me out a bit. No bad dreams thankfully i don't remember my dreams. The only therapy that worked well was EMDR any supporters? agianst?

So thats me in a nutshell, im pretty tired

Regards,
Vin

 

[Sweetpea76]

Welcome to the Forum @vinny

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums! I know how you feel, there are things that happeed to me that I don't remember, there are some I remember, but the brain not letting you remember is a way of protecting itself from stress.

I know that feeling of fatigue, it often comes along with depression, and it's awful. I understand.

Well, I myself can't offer much advice, but I can give you some info.

There is a more precise sister forum called mycombatptsd.com whoch is this but for combat sufferers more, it's not used as much, but it's useful info.

Also there are many other combat survivors on forums, and many can give you great advice.

Welcome to forums and :hug:s if you accept! :)

 

[Just tryin to heal]

@ Vinny Welcome to the Forum

 

[Justmehere]

Hi @vinny - welcome to the forum!

but have not been able to visualize it, i just know if that makes sense. Anyone else know what i mean?

I can relate to that!

 

[Nam]

Welcome Vinny.

 

[vinny]

thanks guys yeah needed to get on a site like this for a while? justmehere when/how did you start to remember when was the age of abuse? The memory blanks fill combat experiences but i care little about. the getting f*cked with as a kid situation took me back to when i was young, helpless and shattered, at least i was giving the means to defend myself in war.

 

[intothelight]

@vinny Welcome to the forum!

Memory is a tricky thing and honestly it is an area that even the "experts" are just only beginning to start to understand. I have a lot of memory loss, but I focused less on recovering the memories, and on dealing with the emotions and physical changes that seemed so out of place when they occurred in the present. So many of my reactions and feelings just didn't fit the situation.

I hope you find the information here and the experience of other members helpful as you work on your own healing.