Double Trauma-versary Today, Need Support Desperately.

[Deleted member 20280]

Today is probably the biggest Trauma-versary for me in the whole year.

Ten years ago today I was involved with the UK national response to the London Bomings that killed so many people. My involvement is something I will NEVER forget.

2 years ago today I was admitted to Intensive care with extreme and critical alcohol poisoning after my last suicide attempt. I spent a week in a coma and was subsequently sectioned to a secure mental health hospital, I was incarcerated for my own safety.

I slept badly last night, my dreams interspersed with nightmare's and terrors of these 2 events.

All I need today is a little support, not easy as in my physical life I Isolate on days like this and sit here alone with only my thoughts to accompany me.

I thank ALL members of this forum for being there in the past for me and I take comfort from the kind and clearly sincere care and support I am given here.

:hug:s to all who accept them

Laurie

 

[Purplemunchkin]

My husband was in the Met at the time, and the 7th and 8th of July are also his biggest 'trauma-versaries'. I made a post in the Supporter section about how he is being incredibly clingy today, rather than isolating, which surprised me.

He doesn't talk much about those two days, but when he does I struggle to listen as what he has to say is so upsetting.

Be kind to yourself Laurie, and know that you are not alone. People here care for you very much, and will support you as much as they are able.

:hug:

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Dearest @Purplemunchkin thankyou, thankyou so much.

Many of my Police colleagues were there dealing with the devestating aftermath of the attack, I was in involved at a distance. Trust me when I say this.

I heard the panic and emotional anguish in every callers voice, desperate to know that their husband, wife, son, daughter or brother/sister were going to return home that evening.

Just like I heard my own pain and distress when Giraffe was attacked 2008 when my own wife and children could have been killed ( they were in Princesshay when he messed up his attack in Exeter). I worked six nights after that attack and still have NOT told my now Ex wife and kids how much that upset me, knowing that I could have lost them all in that split second.

 

[Sammyiam]

Hugs laurie

 

[Ronin]

Laurie, you did so much in rather devastating circumstances.

Your reactions are very undestandable, this shit is big.

I understand what it's like to be close but still not close enough, to outside circumstances. It's so maddening.

Wishing you all the comfort in the world.

 

[Fadeaway]

Sending you :hug:

 

[Friday]

Here.

You have a list... A list of feel good, take care of yourself things and treats for when you need some TLC. Just a reminder, mate, that those kinds of lists are made for today's like today.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Just a reminder, mate, that those kinds of lists are made for today's like today.

And there will always be one of those days, today and tomorrow, then tomorrow and tomorrow !!

 

[hodge]

Oh, Mr Laurie, I'm so sorry. Take extra special care of yourself during this trauma-versary. These are hard times. My big bad time is in November, though this month is also trauma-versary time. I know what it's like. Take care, again, it's almost over. Actually, it really is over, to quote my therapist, separate the past from the present. Yeah, I know, but do try. :hug:s.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I know I'm late. I just saw this thread. I'm sending support even though I'm late.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I just saw this Laurie and my heart goes out to you. I am sad that you are going through such a rough time right now. Sending you healing and comfortin hugs.

 

[seedling]

Thinking of you and what you are going through to make it through this time.
Take care.