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What Compelled You To Choose Your Particular Avatar?

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Jewels

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I kept changing my avatar because I couldn't find one that really fit me. Maybe I was putting to much though into it. I finally found one that is truly me. This is how I have felt most of my life. I continue to sit like this even today (age 52). That broken little child still seeps through.

Why did you choose your particular avatar?
 
Blonde hair warrior. A bit indie in her fashion statement. Straight, tall, proud. I use the sword to cut attachments and have even created a visualization based on this avatar. No idea where I got it, but I haven't been able to find it since (I thought I lost it for a while but thankfully found it on one of my other computers). I have an attachment to it somehow. I notice how others change their avatar. That would hurt me. I don't know why.
 
There was one Anime that I almost chose. It had these words next to this sad girl sitting on a window sill. "For so long I tried to forget the pain you gave me But never getting anywhere. Congrats your scar will always be there". I didn't choose that one because it's to close to the truth and hopefully not. The scars will be there but hopefully not the bitterness.
 
I just changed mine a couple of days ago. Both have featured my veteran, because he's the reason I'm on this board...and cause I think he's a cutie patootie! :laugh:

<<< So this avatar is my Tater and his favorite AES (Arms and Explosives Search) dog, George. You probably can't tell because of the size of the picture, but George is covered in dust and dirt and they both look dog tired. Clearly it was a long and eventful day outside the wire.
 
Mine change as I've changed. I've had like 5 now. If I had the artistic ability I'd redo mine to a woman instead of a little girl on a swing wearing an "albatross costume".

Albatross was anchoring to me at a particularly troubling time... it is from Pink Floyd's song Echoes. I have kept it and the nickname for 14 or so years... it brought me out of crisis basically. I morphed from this:
albatross8.webp
to (one I can't find but it's here on the forum somewhere)

to this: Becoming.webp .... to the one I have now:
Albatross Girl on Swing.webp


Went poking around for a couple missing images and found what I said about my avatar in 2011... interesting how perspectives change:
"The avatar is the mental/emotional armor I put on to move around and do what needs doing... a sense of safety and protection that one day I hope I won't need anymore.

The nic is my totem animal and being a bird (this has been my nic for a decade) was a way to be able to shift my view of things up and away from myself so I could see things from a different perspective... a "birds eye" view where I could see the lay of the land and learn to ride life like the wind or the waves... instead of being knocked about or knocked out."

Didn't find the missing images/avatars though. One I really miss. I know it's here somewhere... a naked woman covering herself with a stoic look, almost pained... with white wings and scribbles over her head. She was in a yellow background. Before the woman "shedding her feathers".
 
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Dragonfly Meaning
The dragonfly is generally associated with the symbolic meaning of transformation. Here are common meanings for this animal totem:

  • Change and transformation
  • Adaptability
  • Joy, lightness of being
  • Symbol of the realm of emotions, invitation to dive deeper into your feeling
  • Being on the lookout for illusions and deceits, whether are external or personal
  • Connection with nature’s spirits
That's why I chose a dragonfly. For its grace and adaptability. So I can eventually see through my cognitive distortions. And a hope/wish to change.

~Dragonfly
 
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