Busy mind

[Sarah Lewis]

I have such a busy mind at the moment. I haven't told anyone as I don't want to burden them. I have a person bullying me at the moment which I am finding hard to deal with.
Also I am worried about my health. Part of my PTSD is a fear of hospitals and doctors. But I have a problem I am losing blood from a part of me that I shouldn't be :-( I am so worried. But can't see my doctor or a hospital as I won't go near the places. Oh I hate being like this.

 

[RecedingMoonlight]

Hi Sarah,
First, I think it's very, very brave of you to speak up about your issues here despite your reluctance to do so :hug:
What kind of relationship do you have with the person who's bullying you? Finding a way to cut ties or communication with them is important, cause you don't deserve that bullshit. Although I understand if it's a bit harder if it's a family member, cause cutting ties with family is difficult to pull off. Still, know that you don't deserve to be bullied. They're being an asshole.
How far does your PTSD stretch? Do you feel the same about clinics or health centers? If you're really worried about your bleeding, maybe you could send an email to your doctor if you're comfortable? I know it must be hard for you to deal with this kind of stress, especially with your bad experiences of hospials :sorry: Know that getting help should it persist is really, really important. It may be terrifying as all hell, but it's better than letting it worsen into something bad, right?

Either way, I hope everything gets better soon. Love and best wishes for you :hug:

 

[Sarah Lewis]

The bully is at the yard where I keep my pony, I try and avoid her but it doesn't always work out. She just continually belittles me and tells me my pony is unhappy etc

I have a massive problem with hospitals etc and would rather die than go to one. That's how bad my fear is. But logical thinking is I don't want to die. If that makes any sense. But the demons are winning in my mind. Thank you for your wishes and message xx

 

[Gadgie]

The next time you see her wait until she starts on you, then before she gets going, interrupt her flow, and tell her straight, say "that you don't like what she is saying, and if she hasn't got anything nice to say, then don't bother speaking to me"

I did that years ago, with a bloke I used to give a lift to work, he just wouldn't stop talking, and used to keep on relating everything, on whole hour long drive home?

It got so bad, that one day, just as he was getting into the car, I took a big breath in, held my nerve and said, " before you start, would do me a favour and not babble on all the way home, I just want to drive in peace and quiet"

There was a confused look in his face, total silence while he got in, and put on his seat belt, and never said a word all the way home, I think he was in shock? I felt bad about it, but it did work, he was OK after that, in fact a couple of days later, we all had a laugh about it.

 

[Sarah Lewis]

Okay I will try that. Big deep breaths needed ! Thanks for advice

 

[Gadgie]

The funny thing was, I had been rehearsing what I was going to say all day while at work, but when the time came to speak to him, I forgot all that, and blurted out something completely different.

 

[Sarah Lewis]

The funny thing was, I had been rehearsing what I was going to say all day while at work, but when the ti...

Lol that will be me :)

 

[Gadgie]

Ah! well, as long as you get your point across, that's the main thing. It was the long silence that got to me, it seemed to go on for ever.

 

[aut555]

For the hospital, May l suggest bringing a support person. That way you have someone to talk through your concerns re: your fears, and doubts about staff, etc. You could try requesting the same gender doctor as you. You also could maybe get a script for meds to relax you a bit. To let the bleeding continue maybe problematic. My friend is dealing with this, and had little success, but ruled out a lot of other things. Hope this helps. We all have fears about one thing or another, but later it can amount to less. The more we let it hold us it back, the bigger the fear grows. Better to just take action and let go of the fear.

 

[Freedomfighter]

I have such a busy mind at the moment. I haven't told anyone as I don't want to burden them. I have...

Empower yourself and do as much medical research as possible. Many questions about our own health can often be found online. U tube has oodles of videos made by doctors that speak about certain illnesses. We are in a great age of technology that lets us help ourselves now when it comes to our health. Due to my own research I was able to disproof many opinions of my previous personal doctors. I get bullied by stalkers every single day so I know how you must feel....

 

[Kintsugi]

I'm not sure Dr. Google is meant to handle persistent loss of blood, with all due respect, @Freedomfighter.

I think some valuable advice has been offered here about how to cope with getting the help you need. Just remember, you are worth getting help. Your body deserves to be as healthy as it can be. I'm sorry this is so difficult for you.

 

[Gs172003]

This post is from last year. I doubt they are still reading this. That said I hope it turned out ok.