Poem... Sharing My Current Emotions

[Smile]

MY LIFE...

My life...
Consists of... Nothing
Awakening to the thought
'Oh god, another day to try getting through'
This is not living

My Life...
I consider myself lucky when I can sleep thru the night
Of course with the aid of multiple meds
But oh, those nights I wake up in a sweat
From a nightmare either remembered or not

My Life...
Hearing people tell me to do something I "enjoy"
What?! I haven't enjoyed anything in years!
Reminds me of "life before" this hellhole
When I had hobbies, friends & went out without a seconds thought

My Hell...
If there is a god, if there is heaven & hell
I assume I'm gong thru hell here on earth
But... That doesn't give me comfort
I just want MY LIFE back

 

[Tinyflame]

Brave of you @Smile. :tup:

I did hear, "Life is full of suffering.. and yet.."

But I get it. I'm so tired too.

:hug:

 

[lostforgottensoul]

MY LIFE...

My life...
Consists of... Nothing
Awakening to the thought
'Oh god, another day to try gettin...

I can SOOOO relate, except I never got to have friends. I can especially relate to the "havent enjoyed anything in years" part! I feel your pain! Hugs to you!

 

[Smile]

Thank you

 

[Ronin]

Thank you for sharing your poem, Smile, it's appreciated. ;)

 

[TheKunBaBa]

When I had hobbies, friends & went out without a seconds thought

I can relate to this poem, but i have fragmented memories of life before whatever I'm going thru, i dont remember much. Every memory is mixed with some other, don't know whether they r true. No friends who know what im going thru n avoid going out , fear of losing it anywhere.
Don't even know what i want from Life, except Death.:(

 

[Smile]

I can relate to this poem, but i have fragmented memories of life before whatever I'm going thru, i...

I know the feeling and I'm so sorry ur going thru this :((

I think it would take a bit of the burden off to share what ur going thru with a friend that u truly trust. And if not... U always have us!