Sufferer Safe Escape.

[deephousejunkie]

It's a new year and as good of a time as ever to find a place to hide behind metaphors and trees. Yesterday I wrote stories of love and hope, today it is bantering of the pain adversities have left me stung with. Poisonous venom surging through my blood stream, infecting every atomic level sized part of my being. No doctor can express this substance even with ambition. One day it will start to dry up. It won't ever leave but it will become stagnant. Well known in this place. Internal lashes are the only thing that leaves scar on this body.

 

[intothelight]

@deephousejunkie Welcome! :)

Beautiful metaphor...........

 

[Nevermore]

Hello and welcome derphousejunkie
You are a poet! Therefore your message is s bit obtuse to me, but I feel the message of pain. Glad you're here. I wish you peace

 

[deephousejunkie]

I don't know whether to take that as a compliment or an insult because I'm not sure in which way you mean "obtuse", could be calling this post unintelligent or could be saying it's hard for you to understand. Among other things. I appreciate all feedback, but just know that I use the english language as a way for me to cope with not being able to seek solace. I enjoy this dark place, I've known it for a very long time. Everything else, including change scares me. Change to feel better, to welcome happiness into my life.. They're unknown.

Hello and welcome derphousejunkie
You are a poet! Therefore your message is s bit obtuse to me, but I fee...

 

[Nevermore]

Oh sorry! I meant it was like reading poetry where you get the message without knowing the full story.
More of a compliment!
Just wanted to say hello and welcome. (-:

 

[Island Jim]

It's a new year and as good of a time as ever to find a place to hide behind metaphors and trees...

Hi Deephousejunkie,

I've noticed that there is a propensity for a lot of PTSD sufferers to be poets, writers, musicians, painters, photographers, etc. I don't know if it's because our creative minds made us susceptible to the forces of PTSD or if PTSD made us search for a way to describe the mysterious moods we experience. Maybe it's a combination of the two.

What I will say is that your post does a fantastic job of describing what I go through. It truly is difficult for non-sufferers to grasp the dark poison that fills us at times. It's frustrating for them when we won't "just get over it." But like a phobia, once it starts it takes over.

Thanks so much for sharing your insights. Your creativity is impressive.

Jim

 

[ladee]

Welcome @deephousejunkie, I appreciate your beautiful words to express how you feel. I would love to be able to do that. but I use art ... that I can do... but I felt what you were saying. Very supportive people here, no judgement.

 

[deephousejunkie]

Hi Deephousejunkie,

I've noticed that there is a propensity for a lot of PTSD sufferers to be poets, writers, music...

Thank you so much for your kinds words. That's a huge compliment! I've been journaling for over 10 years and have never let anyone read it.. I haven't been putting effort into posting on this site, just short entries, I'll get to longer ones when I can concentrate better. Being a very insecure person it is amazing that people can not only appreciate my writing but relate to it. Not used to it.

 

[deephousejunkie]

Welcome @deephousejunkie, I appreciate your beautiful words to express how you feel. I...

Writing is the only art form I know and I'm not even that great at it. What kind of art do you do?

 

[ladee]

I sculpt, that is my favorite place to get lost. My hands just take on a life of their own and things happen.... I may start on a piece, with an idea in mind, and then it leads me other places, different things happen. I love it. Like you, I rarely show my things. I did make an art doll for a friend.... it ended up being an old lady, with her own personality showing me what to make for her clothes, ect... art dolls are not like dolls as we know them. She had long grey hair, and I posed her on a little twig chair I made, setting on a large rock... decorated it with clay flowers, ect.. and hand crocheted her a little knapsack sort of thing and put crystals in it for my friend....I takes time, and I like that too... therapeutic... just as your beautiful words are for you... and we get to enjoy your view of the world thru your words.... Thank you for asking. And I am looking very forward to more of your 'art' as well. We need an outlet, something that makes sense to us, to express our self. I am very happy you are here. sending you welcome :hug:'s if you are comfortable with that...

 

[catlover26]

I have done many kinds of art and crafts in my life but now I get too tired after work to do them. So I started coloring nice coloring books with colored pencils. My sisters gave me two books and some nice coloring pencils for Christmas. You can add water to the pencil and use it as watercolors also. It is very easy to do and relaxing. And I really need something to relax me at times!!