lostforgottensoul
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This isnt a big deal but im seeing a member(s) speaking about an anti-nightmare med (had never heard of that) but the one ive seen posted here is a blood pressure med & my bood pressure is on the low side due to my pain meds/morphine pump & its actually getting lower to the point that my dr doesnt want to do any increasing of dosage morphine pump is putting into my spinal cord (we are currently tiering the pump up & my oral/patch meds down) so i cant lower my blood pressure any more, IF the dr will give it to me at all.
But nightmares are at an all time high. I have to take my tizandine (muscle relaxer) & a xanax (sometimes 2 if my mind doesnt stop racing for hrs) to get to sleep in the first place. I cant take sleeping meds, i have a hard enough time trying to wake up. I do have something i do that helps me feel safe at night so that i can go to sleep that ive spoken about before but dont wanna get into that now. Its not bad, just weird.
Anyway, ive tried lucid dreaming and i cant seem to do that, i wake up running & run into a wall; fighting the air; accidently hitting someone trying to wake me; ive even hurt myself down there in my sleep with my fingernails and woke up with blood all over my hands.
I think the biggest issue, for me, isnt the lack of sleep it self; as i can wake up 20 times a night & cant seem feel safe enough to go back to sleep; its the excessive urge that i have to self do a ritual then punish & that is what oddly enough makes me feel safe & i can go back to sleep...and that isnt good.
I share all of this w/ my therapist; i dont think theres anything he doesnt know at this point; and its why my xanax was increased, for night.
But whom a call my therapist is a LMHC, though he knows a TON about medications, he cant prescibe them & my psychristrist and i, though everything is in my file (w/o detials per my therapist, if never seen my file) her & i dont speak about stuff so then i would have to re-hash everything to 1) a woman, women terrify me and 2) someone i havent gained trust with. There is now a male psychitrist in their group & ive been thinking of switching to him. Was going to if she didnt increase my xanax as i was on the brink of loosing my job & jump through every anti-depressant & abilify (crap) hoop that she wanted me to be on & i was done being an anti depressant geniua pig & it not working.
Anyway, is the only medication that helps to decrease nightmares or your brain's reaction to them, also a blood pressure med? Is there anything i can bring to my therapist then to my psychristrist if my therapist agrees that wont lower my blood pressure? I find it weird that if there was one that could help at least me hurting myself in my sleep and my therapist not mention it? He seems to be the chemicals in the brain expert in my opinion.
Like the new bipolar depression med Latuda due to my mental state making me overly super exhausted where i couldnt awake myself up w/o handfuls of caffee pills; but my anxiety still being there running rapid, i stopped my xanax for a few months (bad idea) but it made me more tired. He said, Latuda would help with both, what he calls "tired and wired" but my paychitrist said "you dont have bipolar"...i know that, have you read my file??
That now comes and goes but when its here i just have to bull my way through it and just push myself.
Anyway, sorry to ramble. I know, im a hot mess! Any ideas?
But nightmares are at an all time high. I have to take my tizandine (muscle relaxer) & a xanax (sometimes 2 if my mind doesnt stop racing for hrs) to get to sleep in the first place. I cant take sleeping meds, i have a hard enough time trying to wake up. I do have something i do that helps me feel safe at night so that i can go to sleep that ive spoken about before but dont wanna get into that now. Its not bad, just weird.
Anyway, ive tried lucid dreaming and i cant seem to do that, i wake up running & run into a wall; fighting the air; accidently hitting someone trying to wake me; ive even hurt myself down there in my sleep with my fingernails and woke up with blood all over my hands.
I think the biggest issue, for me, isnt the lack of sleep it self; as i can wake up 20 times a night & cant seem feel safe enough to go back to sleep; its the excessive urge that i have to self do a ritual then punish & that is what oddly enough makes me feel safe & i can go back to sleep...and that isnt good.
I share all of this w/ my therapist; i dont think theres anything he doesnt know at this point; and its why my xanax was increased, for night.
But whom a call my therapist is a LMHC, though he knows a TON about medications, he cant prescibe them & my psychristrist and i, though everything is in my file (w/o detials per my therapist, if never seen my file) her & i dont speak about stuff so then i would have to re-hash everything to 1) a woman, women terrify me and 2) someone i havent gained trust with. There is now a male psychitrist in their group & ive been thinking of switching to him. Was going to if she didnt increase my xanax as i was on the brink of loosing my job & jump through every anti-depressant & abilify (crap) hoop that she wanted me to be on & i was done being an anti depressant geniua pig & it not working.
Anyway, is the only medication that helps to decrease nightmares or your brain's reaction to them, also a blood pressure med? Is there anything i can bring to my therapist then to my psychristrist if my therapist agrees that wont lower my blood pressure? I find it weird that if there was one that could help at least me hurting myself in my sleep and my therapist not mention it? He seems to be the chemicals in the brain expert in my opinion.
Like the new bipolar depression med Latuda due to my mental state making me overly super exhausted where i couldnt awake myself up w/o handfuls of caffee pills; but my anxiety still being there running rapid, i stopped my xanax for a few months (bad idea) but it made me more tired. He said, Latuda would help with both, what he calls "tired and wired" but my paychitrist said "you dont have bipolar"...i know that, have you read my file??
That now comes and goes but when its here i just have to bull my way through it and just push myself.
Anyway, sorry to ramble. I know, im a hot mess! Any ideas?