My Test Results Are Back.

[Deleted member 20280]

As promised I am updating the members of this forum as to the recent tests I have been undergoing for Cancer.

Earlier this week I updated to inform members that I have a confirmed bleed to my stomach, this is now confirmed as a direct result of my alcohol abuse towards myself and my body over a sustained period of time. The doctors have identified by ultrasound and cat scan that I in fact have a mass under my left lung situated between my abdominal cavity and the stomach lining. This is what is making me bleed P-A on a daily basis.

I have quit drugs totally and am quitting alcohol with strict medical guidance.

Today I have had the preliminary results back for my cancer tests.

I have potentially life threatening and terminal stomach cancer. This will be confirmed by way of a biopsy within the next 7 - 14 days when the doctors will ascertain if this is a benign or malignant tumor.

 

[ShodokanJenn]

@Mr Laurie , I am so sorry to hear this I don't have any magic words for you.

Keep fighting.

 

[scout86]

I'm holding on to the word "potentially" and praying for a good outcome! :hug:

 

[sun seeker]

So very sorry to hear that. Thank you for keeping us updated. Thinking of you and sending lots of hugs winging their way across the ocean... :hug::hug::hug:

 

[mrsps]

((hugs))
Staying positive for you

 

[ShodokanJenn]

Now that I'm on a computer instead of my phone, I can answer you better. I am still SO sorry for what you're going through. I've had 23 surgeries as a result of my own deliberate self harm. I've nearly died several times (never intentionally). And I've heard the words "We see a large mass in your kidney" after a CT scan. "We think it looks like cancer. And also, the scan shows that your kidneys are infected." That was a Friday at 530 PM. 530 AM on Monday morning, I was in the hospital waiting to go in for surgery. When I woke up the doctor was beside himself with happiness. The mass turned out to be an abscess. I wish I could have the words or power to give you a similar, positive diagnosis and prognosis.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Dearest @ShodokanJenn your words have really hit my heart. I thank you for your kind words.

 

[Deleted member 20280]

I am having a really bad time getting to sleep tonight trying to even contemplate my own personal fate regarding the issue of my having cancer.

I have been a medically qualified nurse/medic since I was 14 years old now so rather a long time. When I left the military some 20+ years ago I decided to go back into nursing and in particular end of life care. ****Cancer Care****

My first patient to die in my arms died when I was only a boy of 16 years of age, the second person to die in my arms was my best mate from primary school age, he hung himself after leaving the NAFFI telling myself and our mates he was tired and was going to bed, we knew he was lying and went to find him.

H died in my arms with the last words to me "Tell my mum I am SORRY, Tell my Baby Sister (aged 2) I Love her and always will"

This was in 1990 and I have never been able to tell either of them what his last words were, I never will!.

I will live with his last words for the rest of my life and will die knowing just how much he loved his mum and sister that day.

 

[hodge]

Oh, Laurie, I'm so sorry to hear this. I continue keeping you in my prayers. Major :hug:s

 

[Tinyflame]

Prayers & much love for you @Mr Laurie . Xox. :hug: :hug: :hug:

 

[Deleted member 20280]

Well last night was terrifying, the realization has hit home with vengeance.

The nightmarish flashbacks to my trauma history kept me awake near all night but I did finally get to sleep at approximately 0600 hrs UK time.

The pain in my upper abdomen is excruciating at it's worst. I have suffered severe physical pain over the last 4 decades but have never been in this much pain in my life before. I await confirmation still of my biopsy date. If this is cancer then I intend to face this battle head on with myself, I am not a quitter and never have been, If my survival chances of surgery to remove the tumor are only 20% then they are 20%.

I faced the enemy in battle with worse odds than that on a daily basis and I fought tooth and nail against the aggressors, cancer is an aggressor and nothing more. ** Bring it on Mr CANCER ** Those IRA Bastards could not kill me, I have attempted suicide 4 times now in the past 30 years and even I can't kill myself, You "Mr CANCER" can fukk off mate.

 

[scout86]

I have suffered severe physical pain over the last 4 decades but have never been in this much pain in my life before.

I just want to throw out, for consideration, the idea that fear can make physical pain ever so much worse. Not the "heat of battle" kind of fear, but the fear that eats at you in the dead of the night. It's almost too bad that you've had the experiences that you've had. YOUR case may well not be a worst case scenario. They learn things every day, both about treating cancer and about pain management. Maybe you can hold that thought, while you wait for the biopsy? The waiting seems like it would be terrible.

We're still hoping and praying for a good outcome for you over here! :hug: (Naps, when you can manage them, help with the sleepless nights. Your body needs to be at its best to fight this!)