I Hurt So F*ing Bad.

[Nihe]

So my sufferer of 3 years has shut me out. Today makes a week 7 days exactly I haven't heard a thing. I dunno if it's where I've read so much on here in the last couple days of many sufferers just never returning or what but I'm completely devastated. He promised never to just do the disappearing act and never return and I believed him. It's not him at all. He would never hurt me like that. I just feel so lost and upset I guess. I know 7 days isn't a long time and I've been strong but I have this feeling of I suppose the worst right now.

 

[Zibot]

I know how horrible this feels but thankfully, on the rare occasion it did happen, I'd hear something after 48 hours. Do you at least know where he is?

 

[Gidi]

I understand your pain of loss and all of the thoughts you may be thinking right now. I am very sorry this is happening to you. Please nurture and treat yourself as hard as that is because you deserve it. Hugs.

 

[Pucupih]

Thank you both. He contacted me on day 8. It's not that I can't handle isolation it's just that I think doubt creeps in your mind. However I could use some advice. He took off and went to Florida. That's why I didn't hear from him. He said he just decided on a whim to go and he told his daughter she could go to but no cell phones at all was to be used. He said he had been stressed and the ocean is the only place that calms him. He needed to refresh himself, pray, make lists etc. he has apologized profusely but he admitted to not being in the right mindset when he just up and went without saying a word. He said he knew there was a chance I'd hate him for it. So help me a little here..I have mixed emotions. I'm hurt and I think a little numb to him right now. I'm having a little trouble getting over this one. My head tells me that he really does love me but hearing that he just drove to Florida on a whim without saying a word.....uggggh. I feel kinda like nothing:( he's apologized profusely..

 

[Edag]

That's something I have done. People hating me is a risk. It's better, in theory, than people grieving me. When I get to that point? It's get out, fast, or get dead.

 

[Erudo]

Thank you both. He contacted me on day 8. It's not that I can't handle isolation it's just that I think doubt creeps in...

We all live that doubt sometimes. We can only look deep inside ourselves and see if we can find a way to get past it. If the answer to that question is no, then I think you know what you have to do, not just for yourself, but for him also.