A Letter To My Lost Love

[mt1984]

I'm very nervous about sending it, it's just a scary thought to me.

 

[hangingon]

I'm very nervous about sending it, it's just a scary thought to me.

It's always scary to open up your feelings to someone, to feel vulnerable. I understand that completely. I do think it will be healing for both of you, even if it doesn't lead to reconciling. I hope you send it & feel peace as a result : )

 

[Deleted member 33052]

Mt, what have you got to lose? Go ahead and send it. If nothing else, it should help clear the air between you. And we are here for you, if you need support.

 

[mt1984]

It's just nerve wrecking, I'm just still a mess over the whole situation. I just still feel terrible about it. I guess it's a good way to let her know that.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

It's just nerve wrecking, I'm just still a mess over the whole situation. I just still feel terrible abou...

It's a very good way. you are giving her a gift of clarity, of understanding.

 

[mt1984]

It's a very good way. you are giving her a gift of clarity, of understanding.

I've thought about just sending it via messenger or email, or text even, but that seems way to impersonal. I also worry that it came off a bit like giving excuses for things, or did it seem genuine? I have a hard time differentiating sometimes. I think I used my words as best I could, but I want to make sure it comes of as an actual apology as opposed to an excuse. if that makes any sense at all.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

I've thought about just sending it via messenger or email, or text even, but that seems way to impersonal...

I thought it sounded like an apology and an explanation. I assumed you were going to email it... No wonder you're nervous!

 

[mt1984]

I thought it sounded like an apology and an explanation. I assumed you were going to email it... No...

Yea, I feel the written word loses some meaning through word processing. I may be wrong, a friend of mine said that if it is written eloquently enough and whatever, that it can have the same impact. I just don't know that i have the balls to actually mail it.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

Yea, I feel the written word loses some meaning through word processing. I may be wrong, a friend of mine...

What does your gut tell you to do?

 

[mt1984]

What does your gut tell you to do?

My gut has no damn idea lol. I know that with an actual written letter it gives one something to hold onto, and shows care and that you know it was painstakingly crafted. I actually wrote it by hand before typing it out for all you lovely people to read. I also know that email, text, whatever, assures she gets it, and will probably read it regardless.

 

[mary1979]

Oh this is beautiful, I have tears too.

Well at worst, she forgives you and moves on.
At best she forgives you and gives yo the chance to show her you mean all these words for real.

Either option is a positive, and also part of your healing.

Send it.

 

[hangingon]

I think it was a heartfelt letter that shows your growth as well as sincere apologies. I know that if I were to receive a letter like that it would mean the world to me. I think it will help her to know how you feel and how you view her.