Major Suffering

[Chaoticmind]

I'm not sure how much I can deal with anymore. I worry about things that haven't even happened yet.

My boyfriend and I are going away over night and I'm freaking out about getting an anxiety and/or panic attack. I can't enjoy my life, it's really troubling. We are also thinking of planning a trip to Disney which is my favorite place and a place I consider my true happy spot. But now, I'm freaking out about going; what rides will I be scared on? Will I freak out on the plane? Will I feel dizzy and lightheaded when I'm there? This vacation isn't even booked yet and I can't stop worrying about insignificant things.

Even when I have a good day, I start thinking to myself "ok today is a good day....or is it?" And then of course, start worrying. I worry when I feel perfectly fine that soon enough something will hit me.

My life is slowly becoming me sitting in the house. I can't even manage to drive at certain points. I'm 23, I should be full of life but my anxiety has officially taken over. Any advice or tips would be amazing.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

Have you spoken with a therapist or your doctor? There are medications that help to reduce anxiety, and there are also many techniques you can use to calm yourself. Deep breathing is a quick fix, meditation does wonders. I find that even thinking of one thing I'm grateful for calms me down.

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[Chaoticmind]

Have you spoken with a therapist or your doctor? There are medications that help to reduce anxiety,...

I am currently in therapy. She gave me some techniques. All work for a moment but a few minutes later I'm back where I started. Also attempted meditation. As soon as I feel relaxing and my heart rate slows down, I start freaking out. I think feeling my heart slow down reminds me of how I felt during a near death experience so I get scared. It's very hard to deal with.

 

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Aw love I am so sorry and completely understand where you are coming from. The feeling of missing out on life because of PTSD is a very common thing and you are definitely not alone in that. It sucks when every part of your life that is supposed to be happy and fun is clouded with PTSD. Have you talked to you boyfriend about your fears concerning the trip? He could help support you and knowing that he is there for you to help you through could be of some comfort.

It just takes time unfortunately and I wish I could give you more help but I'm right were you are. Slowly it starts to get better and these fears get less and less (or so they say haha)

We are always here for you!

 

[Chaoticmind]

Aw love I am so sorry and completely understand where you are coming from. The feeling of missing out...

Thank you very much

 

[EveHarrington]

Do you think you're ready for such a big trip? A jump from barely leaving the house to a Disney getaway via plane is quite a change. Maybe start by working on getting out more often. Push yourself to do things outside of the home even if your anxiety rises.