Recent content by oakleaves

I am so sorry you are struggling with this. It is really difficult to begin to allow yourself to remember things that are so horrific. I hope you can get some support to begin to work through this. I hope you can find someone to talk to about this whether it is your sister or someone professional.

I am really scared, I feel like what if I have mixed up and confused my memories and said things that were not true or that have been exaggerated? I worry a lot about other people not believing me because some things were just so f*cked up and I also sometimes don't believe myself. I especially...

Thank you for saying all this. It all makes a lot of sense. I am so so sorry you had experiences like that too. It is the shame you are right. And it is not your shame or mine to carry and yet it feels like that. I know my childhood was very different to that of my friends. I always thought...

it feels wrong to add a like reaction to this so I just wanted to say thank you for sharing and I am really grateful to you for sharing because it has helped me to feel less alone. I am so very sorry. Thank you. I very very much feel and fear this. I have a constant fear and terror that I will...

I don't know if anyone will see this but I just feel like I really need to know that I wasn't the only person that this happened to because if feels so weird. Did anyone else have experiences of things they had as toys being used in the abuse like inside used in the abuse. I feel like I am so so...

Thank you. I am really struggling at the moment so I appreciate you saying this.

I just need to find out if I'm unusual or weird or if my experiences were weird. I find that I sometimes test things out here before I discuss anywhere else and I hope that's ok. I find a lot of childhood toys and things are a trigger or stressor for me because of the associations with them...

So someone said this to me - that you feel the world isn't safe but there are safe spaces - and I just don't really know if it is true? I get that I feel chronically unsafe and under threat and at risk and some of this is trauma but some of it is just a belief that people will not listen to me...

I struggle with this. You are not alone. Sometimes mechanical eating can help. Just eating on a schedule. Eating set things. Nutrition is obviously really important in taking care of yourself and staying as stable as possible. I do have a history of anorexia too so they are just linked for me...

There is a UK book called Breaking Free by Carolyn Ainscough. The authors are psychologists. I have read bits of it and found it a really good book that brings together diverse themes and draws on a lot of the same ideas as the body keeps the score but in a more broken down way. I haven't read...