Want to Stop Working

I can't just stop right now, financially. But I'm in a REALLY bad place emotionally with work, and I have no idea how to navigate it.

I cried (like, ugly cried) for two hours straight today at work (but I work remotely, so it was at home). I'm so tired. I've been struggling with multiple things, work and non-work related, since November now. I am a contractor, and my co-worker and "sponsor" at my current position was promoted, so her job opened up. Even though I was considered a "top contender" for the position, I would not have been eligible, I'm told, because I work remotely. I work remotely because I have fibro (and my medical condition has gotten much worse over the last couple of years).

So, I've been unhappy about all that, and about the fact that whoever they do hire will get a LOT more money and much better benefits than I do. And I can (and mostly do) do everything they will be doing.

Today, I find out that I'll now be reporting to this new person (who has not been hired yet, will be new to the company, and does not currently have any experience doing what I do). Not only that, but they will be my *sponsor.*

I got beyond the tears (sort of) and the intense desire to throw my coffee table through the window. But I still feel like I need to *do* something. I very much want to say f*ck it and leave, but I can't afford it right now. Well, I could if I didn't proceed with the new floors (old ones are just gross) AND was emotionally up to it to job hunt. Thing is, I know I won't job hunt--I am so depressed and so done that I just don't think I can put out the effort.

What could make the current situation better?

Is reframing how you see it going to help?


I left a toxic work place after trying to find ways to accept it or holding out for change within it. It took its toll on me. Leaving has made me feel so so so much better. I don't have that burn out that you are describing any more (I have other stuff but at least one problem has reduced).
It does take so much effort to find another job. It felt like another full time job filling out all the applications and going to interviews. But actually, it only took 3 months for me. So, maybe, even though you don't have the energy for applying for new things, you could keep a look out and just see if there is something out there?

Hey, i’m in similar situation. I’m a contractor working so hard with no annual review and career growth. I’ve been working here for two years.

The company has different project assignment for full time employee and contractor. For employee, the product have to provide clocking code, meaning they must pay for the person working in the project so one person works on one project. For contractor, I do not need clocking code and they assigned me to multiple projects. I don’t have maternity leave or any benefits. In the last 2 years there were 3 reorganizations and the last manager I got is terrible! I was working with the previous one to get either hired as full time or get more money but with new manager I have zero hope.

It’s hard to find a new job right now, sadly. I keep my spirit high by telling myself - any job is better than no job. I hope things get better for both of us.