Going to lose everything, am panicked and want to end it but don't want to abandon best friend or family

Sorry if wrong category.

The house I'm living in will need to be sold. I've been cleaning out my dad's hoard for over 20 years. It's still not clean.

I'm going to lose all my animals, the only reason I'm alive.

Grandpa owns the house. Will probably need to sell it to go live in a nursing home.

I'm so scared. I don't want to be alive. I don't want to live. I don't want to abandon my best friend.

Going to lose everything I worked so hard to keep. I never liked living here but I did it to keep my cats, my only family I have left. Oh, God, I'm going to lose everything

I am so sorry to hear your trouble. At time like this for me, I try to remind myself "now" is not forever. Please be kind and gentle with yourself and take care.

Breathe @littleoc . It sounds terribly overwhelming and I’m so sorry you are facing this Your best friend can help you? There are ways through. One thing at a time.

At times when it all seems too much I go to extreme thinking. Words like never usually tip me off and I have to do a reality check on my thinking. Another thing I have to remind myself of is that every major upheaval in my life has lead to a new and better life that I could not imagine before. This pattern has been so consistent that when I am in the abyss I remind myself of this and it helps.

I don't want to live without my cats. I hope something works out. But probably I will be giving them all away soon, and I'm scared

It’s understandable that you would feel scared about that. I’m sorry you are facing that.

Is grandpa the one moving to a nursing home? I'm asking because I am wondering where you might be relocating, and in that case, why you can't take your cats with you. You might still be able to.

I was in a similar situation at one point, and the cat ended up living with my uncle for a while, and when my uncle didn't want to care for him anymore, the cat went to a friend of another family member. I didn't know the friend, but they said that it would be okay for me to come and visit the cat, if I wanted.

So all is not lost. I think Lost in the Woods posted a really good comment. Can you first take a breath, maybe let out some emotions, then when you feel calmer can you do an inventory, just write down every single thing you can think of that would allow you to either keep your cats or visit them. Ask everyone you know for advice. You never know, someone might have a great idea.

@littleoc I am so sorry that you are going through this right now. I am thinking of you.

I have five cats, two reptiles, one bird

They are family to me. Doubt I'll be able to have that many or re-home all of them in a way I can visit often

It's so hard. I'm so scared. Have a job interview at local fast food place today. I only make 1000/mo on disability, so planning to come off of that because I have no choice

Thank you

littleoc said:

I have five cats, two reptiles, one bird

They are family to me.

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Sending best wishes to you in this intensely upsetting and emotional time.

Our critters are our best friends and family.

Thank you