Not wanting your past

Have someone here felt the same... hateness to their past?
I am on the process of healing and understood, how I don't like my past. While other have memories from their childhood, I am... stucked. While other talking about how they want to return home, to home city and spend time with family, I getting into flashbacks. Not that long time ago I realized, that I really don't want to have my past, especially go to the place, where I spent it. And it is so strange and... painful?
Had someone something similar?

Yes.
I absolutely avoid going to the town i spent the majority of my childhood. Despise the place.

But I’ve mostly made peace with my past now. So I don’t hate it. I wish it hadn’t happened. But I hold it more peacefully than before.