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Feel free to move this post, as I do not know very well, where it should go. It's a bit hard to talk about these things. I'm diagnosed cptsd from severe physical abuse. The thing is that (in addition) I have very lucid, very detailed sexual abuse memories, which I've had since around age 6. I...

Fellow hardy souls, Perhaps this a bit weird, but I don't like my country to the point of it being kind of traumatic. I used to somehow relate it, and now I relate it zero percent. I dislike the culture, the mentality, the mindset, to the point where I just dissociate and feel nothing...

I feel conflicted between a feeling, on the one hand, and a reality on the other. Thought that feels like a reality: "I don't need therapy because I am huge success in my life. Look at my house, it is all tidied up, looking great, I am an accomplished person who tries to run a business. If I...

Dear old and new peers, I need your help. Once again, I got myself into a situation where I might be evicted. I need to give you some context. I am very confused right now. Way back, I understood my own story (childhood trauma, had all the classic symptoms, diagnosed cptsd). But the symptoms...

Hi there, Upside Down here, went by a lot of names but I don't come around so often any more. I was diagnosed cptsd from childhood abuse. I am relatively fragmented (or a lot?) in the sense that there's many aspects of me who operate quite independently, but not to the degree of being DID. One...

Hi forum dwellers, It's been a while. I seem to post every five years now 😆 Diagnosed about twenty years ago but now mostly healed. No flashbacks, much less panic, more embodied. A while ago I found out I also have traits of autism (I'm high functioning, and am pretty good at hiding it)...

Hiya there forum dwellers and truth seekers, Someone recently posited a premise to me. You'll all be familiar with this - it is very pervasive specially in semi-spiritual niches. This idea that you should love yourself first and then you will attract love. Or in other words, that you should...

Hey gals, guys, forum people. Don't want to make this a political discussion. I just feel so incredibly frustrated. I have a tendency to isolate and I do so by negatively judging others. In the past three-four years there's been a LOT of ammunition out there for someone like me. Wars and...

Hi old friends & forum folks, For the last four years I've been doing well - made lots of changes in my life. I'm able to live a more or less normal life. One of the things that has been helpful in my mental progress is hiking. I've hiked some 2500 miles since 2019. I would really, really...

Hi guys, girls, etc. I need some advice on a real life, sticky situation. It does not concern me. But I am concerned about the person who is being targeted. The police are already involved but have not been of much help. I'm looking for expert advice from someone who is savy about criminal...

hi @mods, I wasn't sure where I could fit this one. Hi there dear forum dwellers. I’m still around, as it turns out I was hesitant to leave the forum. And now I know why: I still have some "minor" things to comb through. My question of the day is this. Is there any way you can get (back) in...

Hi Forum dwellers, I need some advice. First there is something I have to get out of the way. Namely, that feeling empathy for yourself is good. Understanding and patience are good. Compassion is good. But that´s not what this is. There are specific days were I feel so extremely sorry for...

Hi forum dwellers. I hope this section is the right one for this question. My question concerns how to lessen or absorb the vibrations coming from a downstairs neighbor. The sound doesn´t bother me so much, as I can put on headphones. My bed however is directly above the room of this...

I tend to get into arguments about what the definition of "extreme heat" is. People from Florida tend to argue that my "extreme heat" is cold. Anyhow I am not able to tolerate high temperatures. It´s been four days of insane scorching heat now, the kind where everything is warm, even the...

Not quite sure where to put this. I have a question related to purity and cleanliness, and to Christianity (although other religions feature similar ideas). I´d appreciate input from Christians specially or those who were brought up with it. When I was small I always felt "contaminated" by the...

I would like to share an experience of mine as an example of gaslighting. There have been several situations in recent years where I´ve learned to speak up, state clearly what I need, and say NO. This has been welcomed by people whom I would consider allies. In a specific group of people it...

Hey people. I´m assuming quite a few people are in the same boat as me. Two weeks ago or so all social events, all bars, all education events etc closed. I just returned from being abroad and was looking into starting studying. However the information days, open days and such were all pushed...

Hello there. I´ve recently discovered some YouTube channels that can be quite helpful for people going through trauma. I wanted to share some channels that have worked for me or that I thought could help people - add your own channels below! 1. Therapy in a nutshell. Short videos on things...

I´m looking for a book, or something, that can help me out with my chronic under-eating. I always lose all interest in food when I´m depressed, and then I become more depressed because I don´t eat enough. A guide or a book with steps in it, that I can re-read every time this happens, would...

Heya, I might have mentioned this earlier, or maybe not. For me car exhaust is a huge thing and something that often prevents me from going outside, even when I know I should be going outside. The primary thing with car exhaust is it´s poison made by somebody else that then messes with your...

Yesterday I was out in the forest practicing some crafting with my hatchet. Suddenly I was drowned in this devastating feeling of "I suck at this, I can´t do it". It was so overwhelming that I put down the hatchet and couldn´t figure out how to get the courage to continue. I know I can craft so...

I guess this is related to my previous post about breaking ties with people. I´ve always been attracted, in real life, to people who did not have time for me, even though they were otherwise people I got along with great. So eventually I adapted to hanging out with people I don´t really care...

Hey there, My life has changed a lot over the last few years. I´ve become more to the point and more willing to burn bridges if they need to be burned. I think I might be more of a pyromaniac in that regard than "normal" people (who don´t have trauma). If people disrespect me multiple times...

Hi peeps! I have a question about tension. First, to clarify, don´t picture one of these humongous gyms with tons of sweating people in them and horrible music playing. My question is about a small gym with a class of 7 people who are all really relaxed and no pressure involved. I went there...

Hi people! In 2019 I hiked from the Netherlands to Spain, for a total of about 1739 miles (2800km). I learned quite a few things related to PTSD, so many that I would need to write a book and that I could not possibly fit in here. I learned that the act of walking (away) literally creates...