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A family member made a comment to me about multiple personality disorder...when I asked her if she thought I had it or something..she just looked at me funny....so I told my Therapist about it...and she said, " Sometimes you do present differently in therapy sessions." I was like what...

My therapist is reffering me to a trained professional therapist certified in somatic herapy because a thyroid nodule has me in a constant flight mode. I am curious as to how this works?

I've been volunteering at a school on very part time basis. I am on disability. Today the director of the school was cracking jokes about being on disability. Yesterday an intake worker at a clinic gave me a face about the amount of hospitalizations I have had. First of all.. I do not want...

I am not okay tonight, but I chose to live. I know my moments will come back to me when I can smile and laugh again freely. My heart hurts, my body is tired, my mind is racing, and my feelings are so very low. I know it's "temporary", but man this sucks.

He hurt you. He hurt you bad. The screams you made. The tears you cried. Then your Mom came storming in to hear the pain that you had faced. It was silenced with a word you had never heard before. Again it happened! Why would she let him be in the bathroom with 4 year old me?! I step in to save...

Getting ready to change the narratives of my flash backs. The idea? Adult me goes back in time to fix mistakes that were made at the time. I.E. When the detectives ask questions we don't go mute anymore...we use our voice....anyone done something like this in therapy before? I hope it works...

I don't know where to post and I am going to name some traumatic memories in here. My childhood sexual abuser is deceased. Parts of me do not grasp this! I have to remind myself over and over. . . I am feeling a great deal of anger about the abuse. I do not know what it will accomplish, but I...

I am remembering more details about flash backs. Also something very weird. A couple of the flashbacks that happened. I was fully aware of them immediately after they happened. Now I know they happened but can't remember any details! Where did they go? Why did they disappear? If they happen...

I had started bi weekly therapy sessions a short time ago and now I am back to weekly. Go figure. How many layers does complex trauma have anyway.

I have made it a full year without needing to be hospitalized! Prior to this the number of admittances is too embarrassing (personally) for me to even mention. Thanks to DBT! Support groups, good therapist, and leaving a very toxic circle of individuals.

Sooo. My biological Father passed away February 10th of colon cancer. He did not raise me. I had an occasional relationship with him. We did find closure in the last few years. He hated the trauma I endured. He felt responsible since he wasn't there in my life to rescue me from it. I forgave...

Ugh...I really, really want to believe that medication doesn't really "do" anything, but is just a "placebo" playing tricks on ones mind....but with two missed dosages of lamictal and a significant decrease (took 25 mg last night..but am prescribed 75.....because two days before this I forgot to...

People can make me so upset! I just read a post elsewhere on the internet about disability benefits.....where in people are proposing that having a disability is NO excuse to keep someone from working! And another person said, ONLY The PHYSICALLY disabled should be exempt from working full time...

Having stupid flashbacks now! Was triggered via another social media platform. In addition a pain in my lower back? What's up with that? . . . And seriously, I've been recovering from this trauma for 3 years now! (20 ish years worth of trauma, but still. It's got to stop someday) Also a side...

I am waiting for my therapist! There is no word of her or from her. I texted her to see if we are still meeting and I have heard nothing. My appointment was scheduled 26 minutes ago according to my text she sent 2 weeks ago! We usually meet an hour later than she said she scheduled. I don't know...

I am stoked! Getting ready to pick up our dog as a Christmas Eve Surprise! He has been living in a foster home the last few years as we were in a domestic violence shelter for a while and then in an apartment where he was too big..now we are in a house and can get him back. I can not wait to see...

I hate upsetting people. I feel like everywhere I go be it cyber or the real world I am constantly offending people...I know an apology is said to not be needed...but I don't know how else to right a wrong. So to the people in the other thread who felt like I overstepped them I really truly am...

For those whose depression is more severe in the winter/dark season...have you ever tried a therapy lamp?

Through a series of unfortunate events, many depressive episodes, and ptsd at it's worse I came to learn the meaning of true friendship...those who judged, criticised ( in none constructive ways), or otherwise shamed, bullied, deserted, and abandon me were never my true friends. Thankfully...

The dumbest things make me freak out! Anyone else? Example: people coming to my house. Is it to messy for them? I haven't heard from john doe in a while wonder if he is mad at me? Oh my gosh..sirens! Oh I hope it's no one I know. These a just a minute few!

I am not sure where to post this. Having a memory...I was trying to hide...by sleeping in a bathtub instead of my bed as a child. It feels flashback like. In it I am terrified...but nothing "bad" happens. Bizarre that I chose a bath tub to hide in...because I didn't want to be found in my bed...

Thoughts of "I wish I had went through with it when I was a teen." "I can't now because I have children who need me". I wish there was a way to eliminate my "parts", but leave the "me" that functions as Mother alive. Also realizing what I want is just to stop feeling this way. I know this is...

Nightmare of abuse that seemed real last night leading to flash backs today. Have been doing well previous to this. See therapist every other week.Texted to ask about next appointment date because I forgot...It's a week and a half away. She is asking if every other is still okay? I don't know if...

Guests, cleaning house, and throwing parties...sounds scary doesn't it? I had a depressive episode, followed by a bad cold, today I am feeling better. I have a friend stopping by later today to drop me off a table and chairs I can borrow for my sons birthday on Sunday. I cleaned and wiped all...

Hey. How are you all? I am going to be throwing a Harry Potter themed party soon for someone I dearly love. I am excited about the details, but not the crowd that will be coming. Only cause I dislike crowds... Anyway it got me interested and now I am hooked! Lol So I thought it would be fun to...