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This is legit one of the scariest experiences for me. It's happened several times in the past year and occurred again last night after a long reprieve. I awoke shortly after falling asleep next to my husband at home. I didn't know who he was, where I was, or what time frame I was in. I literally...

As much as I don't necessarily "want" to do it, I'm having intrusive thoughts and a feeling that I'm about to black out and act on them without my control. Like dissociation and meeting the breaking point. If that makes sense. I'm having difficulty not thinking about falling into a trance...

Having had a mother with BPD, experiencing sexual abuse, rape, and psych abuse has been so challenging. I don't know how to trust in relationships. Being an adult and feeling unmet nurturing needs has been too. I long for the tenderness of a mom. Understanding. Being known and accepted for who I...

I've had a disorganized attachment style since childhood and because of my personality type, I struggle in being able to trust and connect and then fearing "messing it up," and ruining a relationship that feels good. Friendships in particular. Sometimes I get anxious and wonder if everything in...

In the pits for the past couple of days. Although nearly zero contact with my toxic mother, she managed to put me into some drama, lying about things I said (which I haven't spoken with her to say). I got a message from a family member, who I don't speak with regularly at all, upset with me...

Does anyone have seizures and if so, have you experienced a seizure during an EMDR session?

Uggghhhhhh..... I'd gone a long time, at least 4-5 months without self-harming and found myself in a terrible depression the other night during which it felt like the only means of relief. In therapy, and not looking forward to owning up to it at my next session. The therapist asks every time...

Lately I've been experiencing some awful symptoms that feel heart-related. I've had chest pain, lightheadedness, heart palpitations, difficulty swallowing, and nausea. They come in episodes and are horrific. The Xanax I take on a PRN basis for panic attacks doesn't touch it, even when I double...

It seems that I move forward and am good, a lot of times, in the day to day, but occasionally the dreams start again. I had another last night. The theme is similar. My grandmother allows the man who sexually abused me to move back into her home and he's there for the family gathering when I go...

The title alone was clunky to write and likely does not seem clear. I've experienced this before and didn't see it coming again. Last night I became overwhelmed with a feeling that I was going to black out and die by suicide. It is not something I really want to do, but a panic started wherein I...

Tight Clothing, or clothes that accentuate my figure stress me out so bad. I have the revealing feeling and the constriction. Body image issues abound, but my deep seated loathing for these things seems intensified by my history, having been sexually assaulted several times. I feel like power is...

It has been a while since I have experienced a nocturnal panic attack, however, in light of learning that my husband has been having an emotional affair with a married woman at work and going as far as to ask if she wanted to be with him, I have awoken several times in the past two weeks, unable...

I don't know if this will make any sense, but I am so over this 9 yo little girl coming up every time someone shows nurturing contact. I feel pain and terror as I am overcome by the feeling that something terrible will happen. I will not be able to keep it in check and may smother someone who...

Anyone ever enter a trance-like state while doing EMDR? It can be pleasant when I experience it. I was wondering if people can relate or know what it is.

Raising my son with my own history of sexual abuse can be terrifying. It's difficult to distinguish normal sexual development from evidence of premature exposure to sexualized content/behaviours. It's hard not to fear the worst. This is dreadful.

I finally told my midwife about my history of sexual abuse and how it impacts the way I cope with paps and regular procedures. My fear of everything wrong being an sti bc I have an sti from the abuse. Petrifying, but freeing. On my way :) progress

I hate days like this. I might have a spell of a good week or so and then I wake up teary, aware of intense feelings of loneliness and fear, and depressed. Functioning is nearly impossible as I'm quickly propelled into a dissociative stare wherein I feel like I'm floating and behaviours...

After a nearly two months of being self-harm-free, I relapsed again tonight. I was so angry and conflict with my spouse is always a losing battle. I love him, but he makes me feel like I am crazy sometimes. Nothing would relieve the pent-up tension, except for drawing blood and taking a...

At night I have these episodes, especially if my husband wakes me out of sleep shortly after drivingd off. I wake up unable to speak well and unable to reconcile my surroundings (even though it's our home). I begin to feel like I'm losing touch with reality and dear that I will feel that way...

I'm beginning emdr with a focus on grieving my emotionally neglectful and abusive mother. I battle the desire for the comfort of a mother figure, but as that is not really a viable option, I am afraid of how I might respond didn't EMDR. I resort to feeling like a small, unprotected, and scared...

I have a horrible time not gravitating toward mother figures and imagining what it must feel like to be hugged and nurtured. That feeling emerged with my T recently and really scared me. The last time this happened, it was with an older friend and it was grossly misinterpreted. That person said...

How do you learn to love yourself or think well of yourself? I struggle with receiving love from others and believing then and have noticed recently that I don't know if I believe those things about myself. I don't feel loveable. I feel like an f-up. But I know I can't stay in this place.

Vulnerability doesn't come easy for me. Trust is hard. Feeling safe is rare. Expressing emotions is still a work in progress. However, I've found myself to enjoy my therapist and I look forward to going to therapy. I'm afraid that being vulnerable is going to make me feel attached though and I...

I am always paying attention to my surroundings, especially when out walking anywhere. Tonight, I was approaching my car in the parking lot of a restaurant, carrying my son. I was watching everything around me and saw no one. The area we were in wasn't the greatest, so I was really heightened. I...

Please help. It's freaking me out. I've done EMDR with another T and experienced the same thing. I just started EMDR with new T, who I have been seeing for a few months. She picked up in my ongoing PTSD symptoms and suggested working on the sexual abuse I'd experienced. I was an older teen when...