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Random quick poem, may not make as much sense as I would have liked it to. Give Her Peace Look at me, what do you see A girl, A woman, or just another human being Do you look and wonder why she is so Holding a smile but nobody knows Her smiles so inviting but when you come near She pushes away...

I have been working on my PTSD for years and am getting so tired of the constant rises and falls, I heard EMDR Therapy has been effective for some. Has anyone had success or failure with this? Please for info and experiences.

To be honest, I just want to put things behind me for now, but I have been dealing with so much latley, my coach is no longer coaching my class and I had just gained so much trust towards him, my mother keeps sending mean text about the trauma, my bf came back from his trip, but the next day we...

Its the second day being completely alone. I pick up my bf in the morning and cannot wait. Today I spent hours hiking with an old friend which was fun. I could put everything behind for a bit and just put a mask on. Its hard because I cannot explain things to people like I want to so I am forced...

gizmo-Your story inspires me so much. I am considering doing emdr.

lol I was thinking the same thing, I think I am making some type of fancy rice tonight, I am just missing a lot of key ingredients to make a traditional meal, so I was going to make something random with all my left over veggies and rice and stock.

So today was the first day of my bf leaving to his trip. So far it seems like he is having a great time, so I am happy about that. To be honest I wish he would go on trips more often. I know its hard to be only around me, especially when I get in my triggered states. He works so much and doesn't...

So some may know I am recovering from a melt down. I have been very angry and irritable lately. Its been really hard. I have been managing my symptoms better, tonight is first night I could not sleep. My partner is leaving out of town for a few days and not only is the timing horrible,but its...

Aw, no don't feel bad, he loves you, may be upset, but even though he may not fully agree, he is making an effort to understand you. Hopefully he wont be a butt head about it.PS wounds may not heal the way we want or need them to, but we can always strengthen our skills against them. Good job...

I personally think that you have a right to your opinion, and he loves you and respects that. Even if he doesn't agree, does not mean he cannot be sensitive to your feelings. What you feel is your own. I Actually see less of a problem with strippers, but my experience and thought process has...

Sorry it takes a bit to get back, been a little overwhelmed. All the input and advice on here has been very helpful. Shimmerz- I think it is lessening because I have a very supportive partner. I know I have to be strong, because he has put so much in me and I know he would be left so angry at...

To be honest I called a shelter, and victims hotline and much more. There is no help there, life isn't always fair, but at least I can make myself stronger, and learn to defend myself. I think people are assuming I am just a nutcase who wants attention. Not that I am living in terror right now...

I know that part of ptsd is blaming yourself, and I blamed myself for so long. But now when I feel most healthy is not when I deny blame, but when except some blame and more understanding. I am not saying I am completely responsible at all, but that some fault is okay to have. Like making a...

Final update- I finally got a sheriff to come and make a complaint, He said that there was nothing he can do, I explain that I know that but I wanted to make a report. He explained that I could only make a complaint. I asked if anyone gets hurt by him and reports it can they see my complaint so...

Today around 11:00 am I went to my city police station to attempt to make an report, knowing that it is very unlikely to get charges pressed, but I can at least make a report. I went to the desk and let them know I wanted to make a report, she asked on what, I said on a potential stalking...

Gizmo-Thank you so much for the support and book suggestion. I will def read it. My next post will be to continue recording my attempts somewhere just in case something does happen.

No one believes me because I am mentally ill, or am I mentally ill because no one believed me?

No one believes me, I am told I only do things for attention, I watch people make the same mistakes I make and be treated like it is nothing but I do it and its a big problem. I am not stupid, I understand what is going on. I understand the dynamics of victimization. I understand the horrors in...

Notsowild- I love that idea!

Yes, I completely get what you are saying. I wish there was a way to fix things.

I am done, I can not fight people's reaction and judgment. I think I am going to move far away so I can start over. Delete all my social media and live a simple life. If he is willing to have me I will take the one person in the world I trust and we can create our own little world of safety and...

You know what, theres no point, I report I am crazy. Gives more fuel against me, people judge for struggling and those who know judge me for not saying anything. Do they not understand what its like to fear someone so much? I really did try, multiple times. No one ever listens. Maybe I am making...

Last attempt- Called the police department just to at least ask if I have enough to make a case or report, I felt as though I got the run around, I tried to explain that he is not showing up at my home, but at my old job and it is making me feel uncomfortable and scared, she did not comment much...

I also called 211 because I was directed by others too and they said they could not help me either, I am writing this down here so I can at least have some record of the attempts I have made to seek help. In the past people blame me for not seeking help, but they do not understand that I did...

I called a womens shelter because I have been told by many people that they can give more information on the rights of a stalking victim and they told me that they can't help me and to call the police, but I do not want to call the police without knowing my rights or if this is something they...