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Hey. I haven't been on here in a long time, but I'm revisiting my trauma through some more exposure therapy. One of the things I remember about my rape is dissociating and being brought back by orgasm. In the morning, the people outside the room clearly indicated I was loudly moaning the...

Hi. I am dating a man from beyond my dreams and have been for nearly two years now. He is kind, patient, thoughtful, dedicated, and my other half. Today when we were walking somewhere together, I was very irritable. He asked me if I wanted him to read something to me on his phone about our...

I had an idea today to conquer my severe prolonged abuse and it's effects by being severely nice to myself for even longer. What can I do to be almost excessively nice to myself to reverse the messages I've received and perpetuated?

Yesterday I was driving and had a green light. A car went when it wasn't supposed to, and I T-boned him. Physically, I'm pretty OK, but I'm worried because I already have PTSD from child abuse and two sexual assaults. I'm already experiencing difficulty sleeping, feelings of terror, a feeling it...

I'm doing all I can to avoid my life right now. My boyfriend is lying on the ground of our room because he's tired. I hope he stays there forever. I don't want to interact with anyone. I just want to go to sleep. In my DBT skills class, we're learning acceptance. Acceptance of how things are. I...

Severe depression is just really f*cking hard. It's been so bad this week. I made a promise to myself and my boyfriend I wouldn't commit suicide, but I still called a suicide hotline yesterday because the thoughts were so persistent. Suicide is so appealing to me. I usually keep going for...

I've had really intense suicidal ideation this week, and I've gone down dark paths before, so I sought help and took a bunch of preventative actions. My therapist and I set up an appointment for today, but she hurt her back right before it and is on her way to a doctor. I'm feeling a little bit...

Hi. I'm experiencing a bit of confusion. I see how my symptoms are affecting two people close to me. One had to live through me going through a very suicidal phase and one night even checked on me to make sure I was still breathing since I take sleeping medications that could easily be lethal...

I've made a ton of progress in the past year. I used the Feeling Good Handbook to reduce my chronic depression; started seeing a trauma specialist, increased my medications; met the love of my life; participated in a sexual assault support group; went no-contact with my dad for 9 months, then...

I just worked out and was walking back from the track when my own thoughts triggered me. I felt unsafe and continuously scanned the environment for threats until I was back in my room. I live in a city, so it's not totally senseless to be vigilant, but scanning the shadows under cars in a...

I'm feeling really afraid right now for no discernible reason, and have all afternoon. I need to do my schoolwork and have a soccer game later, but all I want to do is hide away and do some self care activities. I'm experiencing burnout and dreading this next week of school. I know right now...

Yesterday was the first day of my fall semester of college after a year of medical leave. The amount of walking and cognitive function I had to muster was really depleting. I woke up early this morning and feel deeply sad and intermittently suicidal. My body hurts so much I don't even want to...

When I was diagnosed with PTSD, I wasn't really told what I need to do to get better. I've read about the condition, and know I have to relax, take it easy, exercise, and talk with my trauma specialist. I've read running and music therapy reduce PTSD symptoms. Is self-care and talking the extent...

I grew up in a highly abusive environment, have dated two abusive boyfriends, and been sexually assaulted twice. I've done intense work to manage my flashbacks, lose compulsive behaviors, etc., and am in a really good place right now. I just started dating someone who also had abusive parents...

My parents were emotionally abusive, my dad attempted physical abuse but I sprinted upstairs into my room and my mom stopped him just outside my door, I dated two abusive boyfriends, and was sexually assaulted twice by two other people. What I'm trying to figure out is whether I was sexually...

This weekend, I've been doing the police write-up for reporting the first of my two sexual assaults. It's the first time I've gone near the memory, and I have to think about it carefully to make sure what I report is clear and accurate. I've written up through the oral sex, and am becoming...

I haven't been diagnosed, but I survived long-term relentless verbal/psychological abuse, occasional physical abuse, another terrifying incident, occasional sexual abuse outside the home, and the onset of a debilitating illness due to an abusive family and two abusive boyfriends and have all the...