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@SeekingAfrica I hear that you are struggling and I want you to know that you can get through this, you are strong and capable, just breathe that is all you need to do today, everything else is secondary.

Since my kids are some of the few things that keep me fighting this battle and I am so very proud of the work my son is doing I wanted to share this story. My son has interned for this company for the past two summers and is hoping to get a permanent job with them after graduation next year...

Thank you everyone that helped me work through this yesterday. I am hoping that over the next few weeks my life will get back to some semblance of normalcy with me actually be in a new long-term residence (at least I hope long term). I have been second guessing a lot of the decisions that I...

Wow, you hit a nerve on this one, my first thought was that you have no idea what you are talking about, then I realized that you were right, I did just that reverted back to my cognitive distortions including: I am not worth it, I am too needy and I am good enough and I am always wrong. I...

@Movingforward10 the logical part of my brain understands this, but the emotional part well, it isn't so enlightened. I was able to arrange things as part of my move to potentially see him in person for next weeks session. I emailed him today that unless he has an issue due to covid I would...

@grief as much as this was not the answer I was hoping to get your comment hit home. It is not something that I have considered in terms of comfort for him. I get the need to have strong boundaries and reasonable expectations but logically thinking it can't be an expectation unless it is...

I am having a really rough week and I reached out to my T to see if he had any openings and would be available for an additional session. This is not something I do often and in nearly 3 years of working together have done so less than a handful of times. I understand that he didn't have an...

Great, more heavy thinking to be before we get off the ground I honestly just wish I could do ECT and erase all the horrible memories

My T want to try CPT again, have never completed formal CPT, I have done modified versions with this T in the past but am considering trying this again. The thing is he wants me to sign two different treatment contracts. One is the standard that comes from the CPT treatment guide, the second...

Bisquick recipes, not quite the same as my cookbook from the 1970's but most of the original recipes are here

Full moon setting in the west this morning. I miss being on the water, but views like this are why I still return to my childhood home and can find some peace mixed with all the pain and nightmares.

Twizzlers -the original are these amazing strawberry flavoried licorice strips. DO NOT confuse them with cherry licorice as the don't even compare and strawberry twizzlers can be eaten, used as a straw, cut into even pieces and use when playing poker w/o money as they are very valuable. they...

Midwest gal here and I have never heard of Dino's brand so I can't say what they are like but French's Fried Onions I can demolish a container as a snack so very good. As for stacker pickles I have a preferance for Vlasic brand and they are great for sandwiches and burgers.

Sunrise over the plains of Kansas

@Teela I haven't been to Sheppard Pratt but I have been to River Oaks and a general hospital. In my experience (2018) the differences between the two are substantial. In the general hospital, I had maybe one session a week with a therapist and one or less a week with a psychiatrist for med...

The kids loved it as well and it helped to make what could have been a less than festive halloween for the kids something different and fun. By far the most popular house in the neighborhood.

My neighbor built this last year with pvc pipe, lights etc, candy goes in at the top, kids held the bag at the mouth of the skeleton head and the candy slid out

The full depth of multi-generational trauma in my family, at least two generations before me and that my cousins and their parents didn’t have the idyllic lives I have always thought they did.

@Friday thank you! I haven’t tried to look at this from a neutral position, he isn’t abusing me, and while I don’t appreciate feeling like he has used me in the past I have taken a step of setting the boundary of not working for him when it would have been less than ideal. There isn’t any harm...

Okay short story, I became friends with/casually dated a guy starting in the fall of 2019. When COVID hit due to both of our jobs as essential workers and both dealing with large populations of at risk individuals we agreed not to see each other duing the lockdowns. Well, lockdowns ended and...

Florida sunset June 2021

@pamcoco I wish I had some words of wisdom as to why the constant moves, I would like to say my frequent moves have all been the result of things in my life that felt out of my control. But like you I am beginning to wonder if that is true. I am in the process of my 7th move since 2006, not a...

@blackemerald1 thank you so much for helping me to see that I do know what I want and that it is okay to want those things.

@blackemerald1 I appreciate the advice to hold off and not say anything to my employer, you are right it is not going to make things any better. I just feel guilty for not being as excited about this job as they all are about me having it. I realize that in almost every situation I would...

I have been sitting here since I got off work today and I am beginning to wonder if I don't already know why I feel this way. My entire life nothing I do has ever been good enough or right to my FOO. I won't say that I haven't had struggles in the career that I have been in for the last 15+...