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You sound very worried; like things are spiraling out of control for you. I can’t validate what you are saying here with what you think are memories or just stories. I know I had this same break down sort of speak when I was about 14. When I started trying to remember things and it just didn’t...

I like the topic. There, I believe, can’t be a single person who suffered child hood abuse, neglect and molestation that turned out the way “god” intended. The way they were meant to be. My list would be long, oh so very long. Main things on my list would be: Capability to love: I don’t love...

Hello, I can relate very well. As a teen I had no issues with any “physical” emotional attachments, course I was also in complete denial over my situation. As I got older and into more “committed” relationships I started hating and loathing kisses. I’ve been with my partner for 10ish years now...

I feel for you. When I moved away to college the first time it was a major adjustment. I as well left home as home was a huge contributer to the PTSD. I made lots of friends and was completely a different person. However; at one point was triggered and it began a spiral of symptoms. I was also...

Not sure how this is going to write out. I truly thought things were on track to a better life, a better me. I had a really bad spell in 2010. Was hospitalized on a form (Canada) against my wishes. That coming from graduating college, gaining licensing in my field, having a kid and then not...

I have not talked to a therapist or anyone about my grief. I have not had, or more likely made the time to even consider it. I hate therapy, it did not help much ( yes I guess that means it helped a little) in the past. Its just so over whelming. Both my dogs in under five months. My only...

Not sure if this fits best here, but honestly don't know where else to post. I've suffered from PTSD (diagnosed) since 2007. In diagnosed well my whole life. I stopped therapy back in 2012 when after trying to find work in my career kept failing and decided to operate my own business for...

Sounds like a very unhealthy situation. You are now faced with fighting to stay with a company that clearly does not want you, or quitting and being stuck. I feel for you and your husband. I’m glad you’ve kept your cool when dealing with the company that does show you are a much better...

Not sure if any comments will help me, but again I will try. I was just out at a “play group” event for my child. While out like always I started to have anxiety attacks. I feel so out of place near people. I’m very sociably awkward and never feel I have anything relevant to speak of. I am...

How do you cope? :meh: How do you manage to make it through each day? I find I’m really struggling with the ability to get through the days. My temper runs hot all the time, I can’t focus on anything, I’m at a constant battle with my internal dialog about killing myself, and I just can’t stand...

Well, I’m not in school anymore. I graduated, oddly enough near the top of my class, despite having one of the most stressful life events happen while in the most important career clinical. Sadly that didn’t help in gaining employment and I am now waiting to hear if I was accepted to go back to...

I do not have this experience, but I do know (sadly I am at a loss for the name) there is an organization in Kitchener that deals with such things, I was referred to them by my shrink and the police. I will do my best to scrounge up the name. I did find this one though it's not the one I am...

Hey, I am near you, Guelph to be exact.

I relate to this in my own way. Schooling though a blessing for me as it took me away from the abusers, and distracted my mind, caused a great deal of pain as well. Its very common to have issues studying and even attending classes sometimes when your at a low point. You can only try your...

I honestly don’t know what I write on this board, nothing constructive or helpful generally comes out of it. And usually the conversation gets turned from what I am seeking advice on to someone else’s issues whom happens to “reply”. But alas I have no one else to go to, and nowhere else to vent...

Every night I spend awake, staring at the wall, listening to my dog dream running and think about all the wasted oxygen I use up every day by existing. Thinking about how pathetic I am as a human being. How much things would be better if I just simply never existed. All I ever seem to notice...

Analogies and quotes don't ease anything. And it's not like I don't want to see the "nice" the "good" in my life, it's not like a situation where " it could be worse" plays a part. Cause to me this is worse, I personally ( very bitter sorry) would rather be a starving third world child with...

Not even sure how to begin. My life is like one big ball of never ending crap! I’m just at my last straw! And have already started to plan for my “unthinkable” yet thought about all the time, actions. L Nothing in life is ever easy, but does it always have to be a 90 degree uphill battle...

Dolphin, I understand this situation all to well. My fiancé has done similar things in arguments. He has used the very little bits that I have shared with him to hurt me in when he is raged. I am not sure how to get over it myself. I to feel it as a huge betrayal. I find it hard to look at him...

Funny I’ve been a “member” to this site for a year now, and I don’t recall ever actually introducing myself. My post history doesn’t have an introduction post either so… I’m going with I never did introduce myself or my story. I’m A victim of Childhood sexual, physical and mental abuse. I grew...

I have battled myself for years now. I have tried to seek help around every corner only to be shutout. I dont ever speak my mind (I can type it here but saying it in person is very different). I have a very strong Hate on for Medications. Specially Depression and anxiaty meds. up tell resontly...

Background: Been in a relationship with N for 7 years. He has child from previous relationship that is a product of his environment at his mother’s home (aka not normal child). We have a two year old together. He knows little bits about my past, is stubborn, and likes to make sure I know what he...

Empathy: I thank you for your reply, even more so that you actually somewhat understood all the ramblings. I have attempted the "mommy group" thing back when my son was born but its again not something I am good with or really interested in. But the suggestion was nice. I do put myself out of my...

When does the victim become the surviver? I can't define myself as a surviver, I am told by therapists I am a " surviver" but how can that be when I still suffer? When my entire life is in shambles because of repercussions I suffer due to years upon years of abuse. Why am I the ones who's...

Isolation I'm at my wits end with myself. I've got not a single person in my life that I can talk to, nor do I even really know how to anymore. My "life" right now consists of my over active, over intelligent, extreme two year old son. I have zero people I'd call friends, zero acquaintances...