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Funny, I have dyscalculia so I hate math and numbers but I have a lot of associations with numbers. Like when I see 9:09 on the clock, I think of my son because that's what time he was born. I have a number, my brother has a number, my husband always sees 1107 everywhere. If you tell me a...

I had an exceptionally traumatizing week. I was 15 weeks pregnant and very happy and excited to be pregnant, I had told everyone. On Monday morning at 3am I went to the ER for severe bleeding and cramping. We were there until 8am. While there I had severe labor contractions, I was in so much...

I had my first EMDR session last week. Towards the end, I got overwhelmed and shut down. I was crying and nonverbal. But then the following days I was not myself, I felt like my body wasn't mine, had somatic flashbacks, and wasn't comfortable having sex until 3 or 4 days later (my trauma I'm...

I just wanted to share that I used a set of markers and a stack of 3" x 5" cards to make communication cards when I get triggered. (I completely shut down and can't talk, quite literally). It's been a long time coming and I can't believe I only just now made them. I can write or text just...

I like to do YouTube dumbbell workouts at home in my living room. I used to have a very good routine with it, but then I got pregnant, I switched to prenatal yoga. Now I'm getting back to my routine. I love to dance, and jump rope for cardio. Having a solid workout routine really works wonders...

So we know PTSD is caused by life threatening or physically unsafe situations like war, rape, torture, car accidents, etc... but we also know that two people can be in the same car accident and only one get PTSD. What causes some people to develop PTSD and others not? My husband said something...

I was wondering about those of us with personality splitting, how do/did you overcome that? When I'm in a new environment, I can literally feel myself confused about which of my splits is appropriate to dominate in that type of setting. This isn't such a big deal, because I get comfortable...

Okay, so I got a lot to sort out here so bare with me. I have an entrepreneur spirit, I'm a visionary, and small business owner. I'm more intelligent and more logical than most women. And of course, I have PTSD, and personality splitting. I can't work full time? Like I could if I had to for...

I was molested by my dad when I was three. He continued to be sexually harassing such as grabbing my butt, kissing, hugging, constant touching, making comments, etc. To my knowledge, nothing else happened sexually besides that sort of thing. But I had and have an intense fear of being raped...

Hello all **waves** So I finally got therapy for PTSD. It’s EMDR which I realize is a controversial modality of therapy. I have years of sexual abuse to unravel. My therapist suggested not having sex during this time due to triggers and spicy things that are going to inevitably pop up. I...

I just watched All Dogs Go To Heaven for the first time since childhood. If you haven’t seen it, it’s a very strange cartoon movie. I probably couldn’t even explain it that well. But anyways, I’m a CSA survivor, my dad was my abuser, and he also abused me in other ways (verbal, psychological...

I’m working on a birth plan that will specifically inform my midwife team on my triggers and what to do or not to if I get triggered. Is there anything else I should add? So far this is what I have: Trauma and PTSD Birth Plan Background: Childhood sexual abuse survivor, with PTSD, anxiety...

Any of you that have given birth, did you disassociate while giving birth? I'm 36 weeks pregnant (or so, it's been hard for me to keep track lol) so really approaching. I'm having an unmedicated natural home birth. I'm doing my research on breathing. I'm kinda worried about having a bad...

I haven’t really been known as a “good sleeper”. I struggled as a kid to fall asleep, as a teenager I was borderline nocturnal, staying up all night and sleeping or napping during the day (but this was more to get peace, I wanted to be alone and was very creative during that time). I was...

Hey. It’s been A WHILE. Lol. I’m married now, and pregnant (somewhere in my second trimester). I’ve been married for a little over six months and pregnant for a little over five months. I’ve been depressed for a couple months (probably longer), but not like Major Depressive Disorder, not the...

I know a lot of CSA survivors deal with this. But damn it's hard. I have core beliefs that if I say no to sex, it'll be worse for me (because my abuser manipulated me a lot, like if I didn't do what he wanted, he would say I didn't love him, and shit, he was my dad and I was abused from toddler...

I hear people say things like “There was a fight at school, it affected me so much I went home and had a panic attack” or “I had a panic attack when I got home”. Is that even possible? Are people taking the license to use the word “panic attack”for attention? From my understand you couldn’t...

I’ve been depressed for two weeks, maybe more, maybe less, hard to keep track. I have PTSD from childhood trauma, and major depressive disorder. At first, I shrugged mdd and gad off as “Well PTSD has depression and anxiety, why do I have a whole two separate diagnosises for these?”. But lately...

Hey, so I've seen a few posts about Keto and it's affect on mood. I wanted to recommend a book. It's called "This is Your Brain on Food - an Indispensible Guide to the Food that Fight Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, OCD, ADHD, and More" by Uma Naidoo. It goes through several disorders and suggests a...

Do you ever get frustrated and start crying but you can’t tell if it’s a trigger or a normal emotional reaction xD I have this happen a lot and I’m quick to blame PTSD but then I realize there’s no obvious trauma experience-present trigger-reaction sequence. Then after a little digging into my...

So, I have been abused in a variety of different ways, sexually, physically, verbally, and psychologically, to varying levels, for my whole childhood. I was also raised in a very religious household, and religion was weaponized and used in psychological abuse. My first dating relationship was...

Hello everyone! So I have PTSD from childhood trauma (various types of ongoing abuse). I’m pursuing a career in American Sign Language interpreting. I just found out that since they interpret various situations, interpreters can experience vicarious trauma similar to law enforcement, and medical...

Guys, sometimes seemingly random (I’m sure it’s triggered by something) I have body flashbacks (I know there’s a word for that) but basically I feel in my body and genital region pain of having been molested. I then disassociate so much, I don’t feel safe in my body. Grounding exercises have...

Hellooooo, so for years, I've wanted to build a room or cabinet that was small like a closet, that I could get inside when I'm sensory overloaded or otherwise freaking out. It would be black on the inside, soundproofing material, if it was a cabinet it'd have handles on the inside. Soft blanket...

Hey Guys, this song is so f*cking amazing. I thought some of you might enjoy it. It refers to PTSD, triggers, flashbacks, panic, and rape (but in an artistic way, like the Disney movie Maleficent, she loses her wings, so the song draws those analogies). Do you have songs that like really speak...