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You know how something can hit at the right time and have a real impact? That's what your post did, along with @Sideways' post... I've been down the rabbit hole so many f*cking times thinking about this and scenarios like it... what was it? Was it just me? Am I the sick one for seeing it that...

I really relate to this.. the older I get, the more situations I'm in with others, the more how I see my brain works like this too.. and it can be difficult for others to work along side me because of it... that's just how I am though... That made me laugh!

thanks @Ecdysis ... it is helpful. I haven't talked with anyone on the outside world, other than T, about anything to do with my dad, like ever. I have had no feedback, other that Ts, about it and i have no concept (in relation to myself) of what is normal, what is abusive, what's just...

It does help a bit. At least, this is something recognised by others and that someone can relate to. Feel less alone in that so that's good. How do you deal with that back and forth conflicting dynamic @Sideways ? It's doing my head in and sometimes it feels insurmountable

Ok, this is interesting to hear for me I think fear would be the word. 'He was ruling that interaction'. Yes that's correct, he was. I had considered this before but it made me feel bad, so I didn't give it more thought. I sometimes wonder, if I had a child protection person come judge a...

This is embarrassing and hard to reach out for feed back. But it's something which has become a bit obsessive (thinking about/ trying to understand) for me, because I have different parts of me holding different and conflicting views about it, and their different, opposing reactions are...

sounds like she guided you through it all in a very structured way.... what's bkts? I know a bit about family systems but not sure what bkts is... 😔 T has said he thinks that my brain is possibly hiding stuff re memories from me... and I'm just like, please can we not talk about things which...

Thanks @Freida makes sense... So did T see your parts before you did? Can i ask how she got you to 'see them'? I imagine that would have been scary as f*ck... 💜 I've been meaning to read this for a good long while... that and the one by janina fisher - fragmented parts of ourselves or...

Thank you so much for sharing all you have @Renly ... i feel less alone in my experience when i hear of others' experiences... though, as always, I'm sorry any of us are in this situation. Did you feel you had defined parts at the beginning of this journey? This is very similar to my...

Thanks @Freida ... it's good to hear about others' experiences ... I'm glad you got what I'm saying (even writing it here feels weird)... So can I ask are you also co-consciuos with some of your parts? Like at times you have an awareness of what it's going on for them simultaneously? Or has it...

Hi @Renly good to hear from you.... thank you for dropping by... I would be interested in your process of getting to know your parts... i struggle a bit with this because there is such poor definition of parts, certainly in terms of identity and ages etc..i can get a rough idea but it's not...

Hi @Ecdysis! Good to hear from you... how are you doing? You make a really good point here... not all dissociative conditions have parts... but I guess I'm discovering that i do, so I guess it applies to me... although I don't have DID, I have OSDD... I think that's what I meant by saying...

I'm talking about the feeling of unreality rather than integrating... I think to try to integrate (which is complex) I need to first not be feeling he unrealness I experience about it... but I don't know how to do that... if that makes sense

Good sleek - falling asleep within about 45 minutes and sleeping a good 7 hours. Bad sleep on average takes me about 5 hours to get to sleep. I'll get about 2.5-3.5 hours sleep. When that happens my adrenaline system is so fired up i can feel quite good the day after... then I crash the next day

I'm receiving therapy from a clinic which specialises in dissociative disorders... I've always struggled with accepting the diagnosis (denial is strong) and I've been told its all part and parcel of being so dissociative, having strong amnesia etc. Communication with my parts is difficult...

Could you come at it from the pov of, rather than searching for a black and white truth or not, you weigh up the consequences of believing or not believing someone or something? And then make your decision based on that? I know that's a kind of risk-based approach in a way, but it could go...

Uggh this!! And this! Definitely this I think there's a real logic to this if you really think about it... when we go through a trauma, we have to disconnect or dampen things on one level, to get through it. So that lived experience is almost less than what we imagine another person's...

Thank you, I appreciate it alot 🙏

thank you for acknowledging this... there's no amount of trying and conceptualising i can do to accept all this on an emotional level.... but I guess the therapeutic process is helping on some level to encourage me to look at things differently. Yes I am like you lol and do prefer complicated...

I agree completely with this. I don't like the term disorder. I think language is so important because it has so many subtle meanings behind it, often meanings we take on but don't notice. I think it could be called dissociative condition or dissociative mechanism or something, or response...

Hi everyone, thank you for ALL of your responses ... I can always rely on such well considered opinions and thoughts from people here... people who understand, which is worth alot! I took alot from everyone of your posts 🙏 Reading all your replies helped me to think about the situation.. on...

I have a very good therapist (clinical Psychologist). 6 months in and I have to say I feel very well held and contained in general. But I've been struggling with knowing how to accept my diagnosis of having a dissociative disorder. Been having glimpses of seeing how it fits. And when that...

Hi @Compass307 I don't have an iPhone unfortunately but I'm using Joplin for my own journalling, then anything I want to share with my T, I then put on Penzu I paid for a year long subscription (only £12.50 ish for a whole year). So that means I can make multiple books. I have one for T to...

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Thank you! Think I'll try the free version first... if I need the extra features, I'll think about paying the pro. Works out at about £1.80 a month, so not too bad!