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Note to self: I know things are dark right now but please don't give up. x5

Does anything help? I've tried the typical things they say for grounding, counting, reciting stuff, sour candy etc... it's helpful but kind of mildly. Like it helps to make things more tolerable but it doesn't snap me out. Lately I'm so frustrated with realities I can't change, that since I...

“Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.” — Martin Luther King Jr.

Jeez... the kindness of this literally made me burst in tears as I've not been very kind to myself today. It just felt like I'm doing what I'm doing but if I'm still in the black financially then I'm not doing enough. Anxiety is not really logical. It just felt like I want to scream in the void...

My budget has been broken all year and I hate it. I am trying to budget and work more and stabilize, but ultimately without savings- one bad week and few life setbacks(winter clothes etc) was enough to lead to a spiral of delayed reactions and postponement and anxiety. I'm trying to give myself...

I tend to push myself in actually productive way- on the outside- but because I'm pushing my feelings down it usually ends up with me eventually blowing up in one way or another. So productive, just not healthy. But today couldn't do that either. I just had to detach from everything and...

You have a point there. My body got me to the same conclusion eventually. Some types of healing can't be forced. You just have to go through it to get to the other side. And then the rest comes.

We have regular heating that is okay-ish. But we are in a house so when it's awful outside(snowstorm etc), we have a wood furnace that you can fire and eventually it overheats the room it's warming and heats up the whole floor. But the smell of like inscents burning (or whatever you do as...

I'm having a hard time. But, I don't want to drown in this feeling. So this is for anyone who wants to join. What is one thing you can do today to make your day or yourself, better? What is something good you can do for yourself, not in the future, but TODAY? Me: I will have a ballet barre...

I must try to be positive and set goals, and take actions even if I feel like things are crumbling. Or else nothing will change magically.

@arfie much appreciated response. To be clear I have cried a lot in the last years and it has been transformative outlet. But at my current space my parents take it as "what do you have to cry about, if you knew how we have suffered" type of thing. Basically I end up have to fight about, or...

I'm scared if I cry I won't stop. I've been trying to relax but it's giving me a migraine. I've been trying to get back on track and plan for a future and it's giving me terrible flashbacks to trying to work and failing this summer. Also part of improving my finances is being honest about any...

I think I'm too exhausted to even think about it. Mostly burnout with a bunch of sudden circumstances on top. But some of it makes me scared if my improvement thus far wasn't just wishful thinking with the reality of the gravity of things hitting now. I hope that's just the fear twisting...

Actually this feeling had been growing for few days, it's why I'm scared. But you're right about basic and self care, I'll try. I don't think I can really do anything else anyway, haven't been able to get up for like an hour. Please, I really need you to be right about this, I'm so low.

I'm scared. Few awful things made my already shaky situation worse. Also had few small triggers on top. And now it's like I'm free falling and I can't stop. I'm in freeze response I think. I keep being in autopilot and knowing whatever I do won't be enough. But then being so triggered I can't...

There is a LOT I have gotten over from when I first got PTSD. However there are things I understand, I have analyzed and talked about... there are certain reactions connected to childhood trauma I just never get over. Even when I go through something and it's fine, more than once, it's like my...

Stable finances that don't crumble from one setback I'll get there but it will take some time and concentrated effort. I will make it happen though. My body before PTSD when I was lean without trying too much and because of ridiculous diet culture still didn't think it was enough. (Think...

I need one too. Rough end of the day, panicking a bit ...

Ohh!! Sending you many many warm hugs, hope you feel better soon! There are such times, hope it passes soon! 🙏 🫂 🫂 🫂

Coffee with sugar and milk Candy bar

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Nevermore *rewatched Wednesday recently and I'm obsessed... especially when I can't sleep

I haven't been this scared about finances in months. Can we get back to normal?

I hate flashbacks Why am I frozen I can't take all the things I can't change anymore I am so ready for new week and a new year I can't breathe and my head is spinning and I can't think clearly

Sometimes you don't get you're drained until you haven't done anything for 2 days besides obsessively watch TV. I'm scared and tired and sad and hurt but of course that isn't helping. Fresh start tomorrow, early night tonight. I'm not going to let this be an "can't do this anymore" moment again...