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I have been feeling very numb the past couple of weeks and would like suggestions on how to get feelings back. I have felt myself going through the motions and acting unconsciously, you know smiling, or laughing when needed. And another difference is I can't feel my body as much. Which I...

I noticed this new thing in the past month. First, the way I cried started to change. It used to be silent crying, with tears dripping down my face. I think I could be pretty dissociated during these, drifting in and out of being in my mind and in reality. Then it started to change to loud...

I had a hard session a couple days ago. I felt really upset. It still feels pretty foggy, but I will try to explain what happened. I guess I want to know if I am over reacting/wrong in how I feel. I am pretty sure we were talking about emotions and it led to her asking if anything bad...

I always read that people caution against worries about being retraumitized. Mainly in therapy, if someone doesn't respond right, it can cause more damage than good. This has got me thinking what my therapist wants me to do outside of therapy. If someone is angry, to go towards it instead of...

This morning at work, I had a big stress. I work in retail in the electronic department and was working freight. I had my cart of merchandise behind the counter and was the only one in the department since the other guy was pulled to another department. I helped a customer, then went back to...

I guess I will start off with a positive. Just texted my friend and asked if she can join me tomorrow when I get an oil change for my car since I am having very bad anxiety and can use emotional support. My brain is trying to get me to think of all these bad things. Like a ton of stuff with be...

I am having a hard time letting myself be upset over small memories I have remembered. Basically, I feel like I just push them away and don't want to think about them. But I know I need to be okay with them and know they affected me or be okay with how it made me feel. My last few memories that...

I went out today to pick up some food, and then went back to my car. I walked up to my car and pressed the unlock button. Car wouldn't open when I pulled on the door handle... I pressed the unlock button again and heard the door unlock. I continued to pull open the door and start to throw my...

Yea, so I am pretty sure I had a panic attack last night at work. Which might make it two this week... (haven't had any, that I know of, for over ten years... why now??) It has been pretty quiet at work the past couple of weeks, but last night I had to deal with a very upset customer. She was...

So, my therapist said I was having a mini panic attack in therapy. We were working on anger and telling me I could get angry and feel anger safe in the session. I was feeling a sense of scared/crying. She wanted me to list reasons I am angry with my dad. I was having a hard time concentrating...

(Please move if fits better in a different section, please) So I am a bit confused. My therapist was telling me that what I do isn't dissociation, it is blocking my emotions. She said that the foggy feeling I get is from holding back and pushing the emotions away, not because I am dissociated...

I just need to vent. Hope if I type this out it will calm me and I can fall asleep before my mind starts going over things again or what not. Work has been a big stressor for me this week. Tonight I had an argument with another associate in the department. We both can get irritated about things...

I have a homework assignment from my therapist. I have to think of what the worst thing to hear my dad say to me. Most of my memories I know what is happening, or facts about the situation, but don't know what was said. My therapist thinks that if we talk about that, it might ease my fears or...

I work retail and had this customer call tonight that was a young boy. Probably junior high or high school maybe. It was the most horrible phone call I ever experienced... I am hoping it was some kind of sick joke... Please let it be.. Even though it makes me sick to think that someone would...

I am nervous to go to therapy tomorrow morning after last week. I wouldn't let myself open up emotionally and did my best to distract or detach from what I was feeling. I feel like my therapist was a bit disappointed in me when she told me I need to try harder next time to look around the room...

I was wondering if others find themselves using this coping skill. I was reading the book Homecoming and when I read about this, I was like, oh my gosh, that is soooooo me! The author was saying how people who grew up in unpredictable environments, that they use the coping skill of "staying in...

This morning I was super irritated. My mum likes to laugh at things. I know there were more than just two, but these were the two I remembered. One was when I was at the ATM at the bank drive thru, I ended up dropping my card. I asked my mum if she could get out so I could climb through. She...

Tonight I was with my mum and younger brother, older brother and his fiance. We were playing UNO and my younger brother made some comments that my mum found rude and she smacked my little brother in the shoulder/arm. I didn't really see it happen, but the fiance was like, giggling, did she just...

I was wondering what age everyone's first memories are from. As well as how much you can remember. I have started Homecoming by John Bradshaw after seeing other people mention this book. I find it very informative and interesting so far. I was reading the chapter on reclaiming your infant...

I noticed that sometimes when I comfort myself by saying things in my head after I get triggered, that sometimes I start feeling like I am going to cry. I tell myself, it is okay, I am not in danger right now. Or use my therapists words, "It is out of reach. There is nothing I need to do."...

I just was updating my trauma diary for a memory that surfaced this past week and I realized that I may be extra sensitive to things that seem similar to what happened in the memory. Has anyone else experienced this? At least I think it is similar. I wanted to get others thoughts and what might...

That's it. I've made up my mind. I need to stop this. I have a best friend who is not good with arguments and can't discuss things. He gets irritated and goes into making everything into how I am acting wrong and over reacting. I mean, yes, there are sometimes where he isn't quite so bad, but I...

So my therapist is trying to get me to accept this mentality that people only have one choice in the moment. What they decide to do. Yes, they always have other choices, but the one they end up doing is done because they have no other choice. She would hold out a cell phone and say, pick a...

That first night, I laid there next to my mum in her bed, tears falling down my cheeks. Just thinking of my mum seeing my dad just collapsing and waiting for help to come it keeps haunting me. It was all I could think about those first 48 hours, what kept repeating in my head. As days go by, I...

I have been so frustrated lately because I finally have a great trauma therapist that I understands me, but new memories haven't been coming up. (Any suggestions on how to help this along, or where to go from here, please.) I know when they stopped. I went to a month long residential treatment...