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Hey guys here I am again... life just keeps throwing traumatic events at me! My mother has stage four anaplastic thyroid cancer we live in England she had to go to Florida to get extremely heavy treatment I have four siblings, I feel very overwhelmed, hurt and traumatised I am left in a big...

I cannot stop my self harm I'm really f*cked up right now my mum has serious cancer I don't know what to do with myself my self harm although I try to control it really helps me, I am deciding to see my psychiatrist again and I have weekly therapy sessions I probably sound like a freak but I...

Hey guys so I posted a forum about a letter I wanted to show my therapist. My mother has cancer and I'm in England when she is in Florida. I have a heart condition which really scares me and I don't know how to get myself out of a situation, I am trying to find a job and a place to live and it...

Hi all I wanted to write this letter to my therapist to show her how i felt about my dad Dear daddy I will always love you, in fact I still do love you I still do rely on you, I still give you hugs you still give me hugs and tell me you love me but I have a secret and so do you, and that...

Hi guys so I haven't posted on here for a while but my mum has cancer and I am living in the uk when she is in the states I hate my father I find my daddy terrifying and want nothing to do with him I know why I find him terrifying but it's hard to say out loud I want to tell my psychiatrist...

It's been a few months since I've posted on this site but I feel really hopeless at the moment with my childlike dissociation it's gotten worse. When I was 16 I had a extreme panic attack that caused me to black out loose my memory and revert to a childlike voice since then I have had bouts of...

I am so frustrated I feel like things will never improve for me i have dissociative identity disorder and its ruining my life i don't know if i am having flashbacks of my sexual abuse, i am griefing the fact that i never got to be a little girl, i have a bear and a moose (cuddly toys) and im...

I am getting therapy two times a week I think I am having flashbacks from my sexual abuse everything is really hard and confusing for me right now, everything seems constant and irritating and I'm self sabotaging everything in my life I have a self harming addiction and every time I see a young...

Hey guys so I am really struggling at the moment with everything I am struggling with my self harm i don't know how many people on here deal with this issue, I am also struggling with knowing who my abuser is, for starters I thought it was my dad but he asked me to stop self harming and seems to...

Hey guys I am sorry to go on about this but i am really depressed and in not doing good, I don't know how to break free from my father's abuse or from my same old cycle of family dynamics I am really vulnerable at the moment and feel I will not get what I deserve because he has all the power. I...

Hey guys I want to ask I probably have I my previous posts, sorry for reacurring subject matters but this forum gives me sanity. I have suffered sexual abuse I want to know how long it takes to get better my regulation is all over the place because I also just lost a person I am very close to...

Some people find this a controversial topic in psychology states but I have dissociative identity disorder and when my different states voices mostly childlike come out they call up my dad my abuser and express that I want to be like the little girls with their dads and my whole body feels...

Hey guys so I had a bit of a breakthrough today I met with my psychiatrist and he is really good I really trust and feel good with him and very safe but there is one issue I am having and it's really bugging me I have complex ptsd from previous medical trauma memory loss repeated accidents etc...

Hey everyone so I feel I am having flashbacks of my abuse but in different forms , it happens when I am with family I talk like a four year old I tell my siblings I want four and I'm scared of my dad 1 I say I want to be a little girl 2 I cry when I see younger girls 3 I say I'm scared of my...

Hey guys I just wanted to send a post I have been really badly struggling with my dissociation episodes and I feel like ever since I lost my memory at sixteen I can't look back on my past with clarity none of the pieces seem to add up it's like a messsd up jigsaw puzzle when I lost my memory...

Making the leap to go back into therapy it's frustrating because I know I was sexually abused when I was younger but I can't remember ( I have slight memories but I don't know if they are real or not so I don't know how to cope) I feel like my inner child is still protecting me from the person I...

Hey guys I don't know how many people on here have difficulty with self harm but I am finding this to be a problem for me since I was seventeen I have different reasons why I self harm and different states why I do it but at the moment I'm fine during the day and then at nighttime I self harm...

Hi guys I was really badly bullied at work by my cousins and now I feel really judgemental about people like I can't see the good in them and I am really closed up. I also get really judgemental about looks I never used to think this way before hand and it is really annoyjng me because before I...

Hi guys I feel like nothing will get better for me. I had not the best appointment with my psychiatrist yesterday and it wasn't the answer I was looking for. I think he knows some sexual abuse might have happened to me but he is not saying it. He mentioned how my childlike voice was due to my...

Hey guys so I have my psychiatrist appointment this week again as it is every month. I wanted to express to my psychiatrist my fear of my father and how I feel it might have been him who abused me when I was younger my only concern is confidentially I also feel like I'm going against my dad...

Hey guys so I know I need a new therapist but I have been avoiding it because I'm scared what it will unearth for me e.g (my father issues, I have been having creepy dreams about this and I am scared to tell my therapist as he might think I'm a complete weirdo!) I know my body wants to get...

Hey guys this will probably be my last post on here because I've really stopped caring about my recovery I'm fed up of having false hope. My mother confronted me about my dad the other night and she asked me what abuse happened between the both of you all I could say was that I know something...

Hi guys sorry for postinbon here again I currently can't afford therapy and this is the best place I can kind of talk about these things. I just wanted to ask if you good trust your body with memories. I have no memory of my abuse but my body feels it everywhere I know you said you can get...

Hi guys at the moment I am in a really bad place I am having severe dissociation where I feel like I'm not even here or nothing is real anymore I feel like I'm just not existing it's really hard to explain I know I was sexually abused but I have no solid memories some hospital memories are...

I've hit rock bottom my self harm has got really bad my mind doesn't feel right I now know I was sexually abused and I don't know how to discuss this with my psychiatrist or how to bring up the subject as I said initially I thought it was my dad but I had a really deep chat with him and he told...