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I have been away a little over a year. My son was diagnosed with a rare cancer and we only had 14 months together. I am lost in grief. Back on heavy drugs to stop the crying. He fought so hard, he didnt want to die. He loved his life, He had joy, he married the love of his life. They were...

Hi my friends. Not sure if any of you feel this way. I am close to my therapist, not in love but i truly care for him. I have never been able to have a relationship with a man than was not abusive. I am in a really bad time in my life, my adult son has been diagnosed with a rare cancer and as...

Its crazy 3wks ago i was amazed wjat a fairy tale life he and his wife have. He has a good job, they love each other so much. Bam, life hits out of nowhere. Its a rare cancer and we find out tomorrow the stage and if its metastasized. He is only 32..i keep thinking i will wake up from this...

Sorry lost story so bare with me. It was a rough night, dreams started with my sister asking me to visit her new home in New Mexico. Let me step explain my sister and i have lived in a multi family home for almost 20yrs. Trauma affects each child and the adult they become very differently. I am...

I have been having a tough time lately. Panic attacks have been bad. I reach out to my therapist, then feel guilty bothering him. I feel this push and pull but when alone in panic, in my mind he is always there to give me a reassuring hug. Its not something we do but i find it comforting. Part...

As a child you cant possible understand the whys of your life circumstances. You see relatives and other children who lives appear NORMAL, clean homes, clothes, perfectly loving happiness. So as a child you decide your nothing because for whatever reason you done something wrong, you are wrong...

I sent an email to my therapist, happens every once in a while. I was freaking out, not at him but how i felt at that moment. My body felt like a thousand ants were crawling on me, i was panicking over work and struggles. I felt like i wanted to just die, i wake up some nights like this. He is...

So i have been with my now wife 25yrs. I still struggle with fear of judgement. I have spent yrs hiding it. I have lived with discrimination. I lost my children for a year and half because the courts thought i was not a good mother because of being gay. My ex was an alcholic who did not take...

Well, i see my therapist tonight. What do i say when he says you think too much, you cant get pulled in. I am not making excuses about the flashback. I want to be able to bring them under control. No drama needed in my life, enough out there just living day to day. But sometimes they just...

So i had a flashback in church. Standing, first i felt tugging and rubbing on my back. Terror floated into my mind and i kept saying just look behind you no one is there. I finally looked, and looked 2 more times. As i sat between 2 very safe people i focused on the mass and plasterer my smile...

Hi all, Maybe someone will understand. I left school after 10th grade. Lots of horrible reasons why. But i have managed over the yrs to have a pretty successful career. I have a new good job with a very good company. They never higher people without degrees and i got support from Director and...

Hi all, so excited after a year of working as a contractor, i was hited full time. its not the same position but i am sure i can do the job. Just a little nervous, I love the team I worked with they are amazing, fun and supportive under stress. Not sure the other team will be the same. i also...

Well my medication that helps keep me stable is also making me sick. My LDL is so high that i developed cholesterol spots on my eyes. i tried going off when i noticed the weight gain, but i got to the point that i decided weight be damned i can function. Its not perfect but if really makes going...

Hi all, Hope maybe you can assist. I am 51 and have been in therapy, I think 5 yrs. I have gotten better, was so depressed and overwhelmed with anxiety, I couldn't work. My problems is that most therapy sessions, I cannot retain one session to the next. Pieces, positive words, my therapist...