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So yesterday therapy was really difficult for me, I felt that numb and distant that I couldn't really verbalise what was actually wrong with me. A lot of therapy was me sat in silence. My t kept asking questions and I kept giving quite short responses. I think partially because I couldn't stop...

So I've survived my 11th anniversary of being attacked this year it was really hard, as it normally is. I've been thinking about the attack in a lot more detail this year though, I'm not sure why. I've got therapy tomorrow which I want to have a proper in depth talk about the attack and the...

So I am approaching the "anniversary" of when I was attacked. I feel around this time my sleep worsens and the nightmares, today was the worst it's been in a while. I set alarms and slept all through them. It feels like I am aware in my sleep I have slept through my alarms, but I'm completely...

I've been in therapy for a year now. My therapist said that now I'm a lot "stronger" than I was and my boyfriend has said this as well. I really don't feel like it. I feel completely overcome with emotion still. I feel like I'm always on the egde of just crumbling. I was honest to him when we...

So this might sound a bit odd, but I can't stand people touching the crook of my arm. There's other places but this obviously gets touched the most. Even if I feel anything touch it my arms go up to protect it and it's a struggle sometimes to feel safe enough to put them back down. I went to...

Therapy has been really hard recently because of the stuff I've been talking about, it's really been making me feel a massive mix of strong emotions, because it involves my parents and sister. I was severely abused by them, in literally every way you can think of, starting from about 5, it ended...

So I have only just started to bring the fact that my dad and sister sexually abused me to the point in my head that I feel like I need to speak about it. I watched a documentary about something similar with my partner and realised that I can't hide this anymore. I need to rant. I just brought...

I have ptsd from being gang raped at 11, but I'm starting to prepare myself to tell my therapist and the first person ever that when I was attacked it wasn't the first time. I can't believe I'm typing this because I never thought I would, but I saw a TV programme last night about incest and I...

So I'm embarrassed about this. I sleep with a teddy and I really have to suck my thumb to sleep. It makes me feel safe enough to sleep. My boyfriend really dislikes both of these things though and I hate it. I can sort of understand why he doesn't like it but it makes a lot of nights bearable...

I feel so panicked recently, I've been sleeping really badly, I keep falling to sleep that fast I don't set alarms, I wake up screaming and running. I have to wash my hair everyday now because I'm drenched by the time I wake up. I wake up trying to shout at nothing. I think that something bad is...

I feel so unbearabley down at the minute. For the past few weeks I have cried or been very close to daily. I feel really bad about myself. I have been constantly thinking I don't deserve to live or eat, I know this may sound odd, I don't know where this has come from. I don't feel like I would...

This may not make perfect sense, because my heads a mess right now. I literally can barely cope with this right now. I have a lot of things that I keep hidden. For a bit of back story I wrote on here the other day, the awful truth, that a classmate found my 11 year old battered and gang raped...

I went to therapy today after a my t had a two week holiday break today. He pretty much jumped straight into wanting to talk about a severe trauma that happened that I've never really spoke properly about, I could tell him up to a certain point before it felt like I hit a wall where I could no...

I've had a 2 weeks break in therapy because of a therapists holiday. I am so nervous about seeing him again. Everything has been so on top of me, I feel like I am just going to walk in and explode on him. Or maybe I just won't be able to speak at all. I wasted my last session because I was that...

I was gang raped and tortured when I was 11. No one knows but my therapist. I suffered through it all alone. They covered my whole head during what they did. It was horrible, I had got no medical help either. I was left with my torso covered in slashes, bite marks and bruises. I had to bandage...

I've been so low for weeks. I couldn't see my therapist this week because he was on holiday. He left at at really pivotal moment for me. I don't know how I'm going to feel when I see him again. Everyone has always walked out on me or abused me, so I hate it when he goes away. I've felt so...

I'm really lost. I've been seeing my therapist for just over 6 months every Friday. We have a good relationship. Last year he went on holiday for 3 weeks and I ended up not seeing him for a month, this was also over the anniversary of what gave me ptsd, so it was a really horrendous time for me...

I had a really bad week in therapy last week and was so upset when I left. I got a lot of my chest but it was really difficult stuff that I've never spoke about, so it was pretty heartbreaking for me. When it was time for me to go, I stood up, I was still uncontrollably crying and hurting a lot...

I am going on my first holiday with my boyfriend, it's also my first holiday abroad in years and my first proper holiday without my parents. I'm really excited but at the same time absolutely dreading it. My parents (mum and stepdad) regularly used to attempt suicide on holiday, from when I was...

I'm really concerned. I have therapy every Friday and have done for 6 months. I have a job which I enjoy, just for a bit of background I work at a prestigious jewellers and I had a few times around a year ago where I had multiple panic attacks (that bad I couldn't go to work). I had to do...

I have this feeling I need to be hugged by my therapist. I feel like it would make me open up so much more. It's always the moment when he's like "we have to stop there", I stand up, literally face wet with tears, trying not to even look at him, he opens the door for me and my heart sinks as I...

I am really scared about therapy tomorrow. I always am. I get really heightened anxiety leading up to it. I am heart racing, sweaty palm, super on edge mess in the waiting room. I really struggle to talk about things I really need to talk about. I sometimes walk out of sessions like I've wasted...

I've always had really disturbed sleep. Especially horrible nightmares. I've go through a stage every couple of months at the minute, where all I have to do is sit on my bed/my boyfriends bed and I drop to sleep really unexpectedly, I'm not even tired, when I wake up I have no idea where I am...

I have only just realised I need to probably tell my therapist about this. I have huge problems with food. From the texture to food contaminating other food by touching. I try and hide my eating from people, if I hear people walking around my house I'll hide in my room until it's "safe" to go...

I really struggle with eye contact. I don't really know what my therapist looks like properly because I've never made eye contact with him. I've only seen him when he comes to get me out of the waiting room. Now I know he's coming from the noise of his shoes on the floor, so sometimes I don't...