3 Years Employment 1st Week Of Feb.

[The Albatross]

Had mixed feelings when I received an acknowledgement card from my employer/agency... though it's been a continual exercise in management... I achieved 3 years service the first week this month. Most all my monthly review scores are 100% and I am at about 85% annually for full time employment mostly due to the changing needs of clients rather than my own deficits.

I decided I didn't want to rob myself of the accomplishment and probably should announce it. It was just a card, but I realized that I have been able to work without accommodation and have met or exceeded consistently what was expected.

It is not easy, but hey I did it. Though I still have a definite preference for two part time jobs rather than one full time one... when the Y's went bankrupt a year ago last October, I've been able to make the adjustment even though at times it is a struggle and I'm not particularly "happy" about it.

I have, I realized, gained some confidence in several key areas... like consistency, competency, stress/anxiety reduction. Just wanted to say that today so I can continue to press/push even when I ain't feelin' it. Before this I had 15 years part time with my Y's and 2 1/2 years part time with my agency before I was put on leave to take care of my FIL who had lung cancer... then I had a hard time wanting to go back.

Thought for today: "What counts is not the number of hours you put in, but how much you put in the hours." ~ Unknown

 

[Forgetful]

@The Albatross That is FANTASTIC! It's a huge accomplishment. Pat yourself on the back and be proud.:hug:

 

[DaisySH]

That is great Albatross, I am very glad that slowly but surely you are getting there. Definitely an accomplishment.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Good for you. Congratulations.

 

[hodge]

Congratulations, Albatross!!!

And, yeah, great quote! I should have that on my desktop!

 

[Kailani]

What a great accomplishment!!!!! You continue to put in the hard work of getting better and supporting others here. I can imagine that you work that hard at your job too and you deserve to reap benefits and so much more!

 

[TXbandit]

Congrats gal!!!! :woot:

 

[The Albatross]

Thanks y'all, really. It is an accomplishment even if it's hard and sometimes seems to not be worth it. I can do the responsible thing when I set my mind on it and my motives are right. It's a more mature way to look at doing uncomfortable things I think to think of it as taking personal responsibility. Do I like or enjoy it all the time? Hell no... but it is far and away less dire or difficult than it was.

 

[City Slicker]

There are so many 'wins' in there, right there in what you wrote.

I hear you when you say what it's like to see and realize that you do have personal responsibility even when the details or tasks are not our best scenarios. The fact that being able to set in motion what needs to be done and doing it is an amazing thing to experience in ourselves.

Best wishes.

 

[The Albatross]

Grinned a bit @City Slicker and heard an old sponsor's voice in my head when I read your post "even when the details or tasks are not our best scenarios"... I got my chops busted in a tough love sort of way quite a few times in early recovery and was chided mostly gently but wisely, "Honey if you really knew what the best tasks and scenarios were for you, you wouldn't likely be here. That's what recovery/mutual aid is for. Nobody want's to be or have been through what we have yet here we are. Part of the process is coming to realize that sometimes we just flat out don't know what is right or best that's why we rely the wisdom and experience of others in the group." Not any criticism or anything, just what rang through my head when I read it this morning. For me, boy oh boy she surely was correct as I was one nearly dead and screwed up woman.

Thank for your wishes and reminding me of that today.

 

[City Slicker]

lol @The Albatross

Your post also gave me time to reflect about my own life and situation and the ways I 'stepped up' or rather 'stepped in' to my own life and how that all started to happen.

Much appreciate your post.

 

[The Albatross]

Okay so... when the wind changes, adjust your sails... totally forgot I'd posted this as an accomplishment. I served notice and am leaving on good terms to return (I've done it before) family reasons... mixed bag. But hey three years is three years and I normalized male clients right?