5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Recovery4Me]

@C j I am delighted to hear that you had a gentle and happy B-day!!!!! :angelic::tup: Thank you Universe!

@Junebug I can relate to post #1559, as I have felt those things as well. However, I am very proud of you for expressing it in the open. (((hugs))) PS I have not had alerts (or somehow missed them from your thread in a while). So tag me if and when you write again, please.:notworthy:

@Anrish OMGoodness ...do I love various Pumpkin Cookies, pumpkin cheesecake and/or Pumpkin Bars with cream-cheese icing!!! :pThey can be delicious! Also you can substitute some of the oil in the recipes with applesauce which adds a delightful softness as well as healthier. Various nuts, ginger, nutmeg and cinnamon with white or dark raisins can seal the deal!

4. I am very close to moving out. Actual move date Saturday!

I feel fierce!


5. I miss having the presence of mind to be attentive to other members' shares. I hope to be back shortly.

 

[trying2movefwd]

No one understands me.
I try to do something good, it turns out bad.
Im trying to hold true to homework my counselor gave me...and get creative with it.
I am worried about someone important to this site.(all of you are)
I am sleepy.

 

[Ronin]

@Junebug, you were 14, right? You were a child, then. You cannot hold yourself / that child to adult standards, of you - now- or adults around you, those of then, and those current.

It's just not applicable. You were a child, doing best what you thought would help. It is the responsibility of other people to ensure that isn't something self destructive, at that age. It is not your failure what you've tried.

2. So. bloody. tired. I'm aware my body's trying to deal with a few infections & bad malnutrition & healing from injuries so I should just give myself both a pass and a pause but f*cking god damn. Resting feels as over the top vulnerability.

3. So back to 'Rest is a weapon'.

4. Pie Day.

5. Am I allowing past a few hours derail a pie day? I shouldn't, but again rescheduling.

 

[LucyDE]

1. The sky is amazing after a storm
2. Must remember my list when I go shopping
3. Yay. Starbucks! Starbucks! Starbucks!
4. The bus just missed its turning. Everyone makes mistakes, not just me.
5. Life will be what it will be. I will survive.

 

[barefoot]

1) Avoidance seems to be showing up in everything I (don't!) do. Ah...the struggle to focus and get things done!
2) I don't feel like I'm a nice person at the moment.
3) Why do I have to test people? It isn't fair to sneakily set them up so that they have to prove themselves.
4) I think doing 3) makes me manipulative. And I hate that and don't want to be that person :-(
5) I am getting on my own nerves so much!

 

[Ronin]

Testing people is a normal part of interaction, @barefoot. Simply wanting to know how something works and establishing boundaries does not make one exploitative, nor predatory, nor manipulative, nor dishonest.

It is just exploring. People do so all of the time, in order to learn. Learning & interaction aren't bad things.

Just because trauma in our lives requires we do other form or rounds of tests in order to feel any safer or more comfortable just existing, does not mean it is a manipulative thing to do.

 

[Anrish]

1. Stupid chief - who prefers others and somehow detests me...but I don't want to change the workfield...grrrr...
2. Nice weather.
3. Barbecue ahead...:hungry:
4. Duty call time tomorrow, I'll do my sport before and remain at home for the rest.
5. Little Anrish sitting on a chair, little Anrish thinks the world's just not fair. :meh:

 

[barefoot]

Thank you, @Cashew - I will try to take what you say on board. I just know that right now I do feel like I'm being manipulative and that isn't a good feeling :-(

 

[Ronin]

Getcha @barefoot, no rush. Hope the feeling eases in time. Sorry you are in a hard spot for now.

 

[Tinyflame]

1. Thank you Dear @Cashew , I don't have the proper words to thank you , so :hug: :hug: :hug: . You're so kind. :notworthy:
2. I am vey worried about your not-able to eat part, your health!! :( :hug: :hug: :hug:
3. I did not feel like a child. :grumpy: I think I was the '2nd eldes't though I was the last of 4 (5, actually, but one died young.)
4. Hugs for all , xox.

 

[Ronin]

1. Bugie, on the mend, so no worries. :)
Soo relating on not feeling like a child.
2. Hugs back.
3. Im happy, a bit.

Got a boat without a port-of-entry permit, a pie, an island that is very sunny and very far away from the boat, a knife and a key.

This may or may not be a hero quest for both normality and freedom. :) In every case that list of items is cracking me up.

4-5. Sisters to respond to. Wondering about paperwork later.

 

[corvidae]

1: @Anrish try pumpkin cookies/bars/biscuits with chocolate pieces in them...mmm.
2: @Junebug there is a house near my apartment that actually looks like a space ship, right out of a 1950s scifi movie. (and no worries; support from me for what you need, even if it's the space ship house).
3: avocado
4: @Cashew we could extend pie baking for the entire fall/winter season, if that helps.
5: water