5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[ThisLifeIsBeautiful]

• stream of consciousness writing is really shedding light on some stuff i'm pushing aside
• my therapist is a godsend. I am lucky to have her in my corner
• EMDR therapy tomorrow. aka: torture session
• I haven't smoked weed in months. i miss it something bad, but damn i'm proud of myself
• I'm actually sleeping again. praise!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

@SpiritDancing I do not believe you are a bad person.:hug: I believe that you are a very good person.

 

[Ronin]

Okay, so what de f*ck makes sense today & doesn't feel ten shades of danger.
1. Ironlady's art.
2. December -> Friday's messages.
3. Suicidality - Mr. Social Worker's words. Not like I can make myself make that call.
4. No, f*ck it, more watching something like Moana.
5. Why are kids shows so terrifying while we're at it? I don't f*cking handle imprisonment even in kids shows. Stellar meltdown over imaginary f*cking cage. FFS self. She won with her shinies. :arghh;:banghead::bag: Someone shoot me.

 

[Crow]

1. Why not act "as if" for a few weeks?
2. Pretend I'm fully functional and do everything a 'normal' person would do. What can be the worse that can happen?
3. Yeah, okay. Psych ward but also everything could be fine.
4. Increase frequency/intensity as the weeks go by.
5. I'll start to do it this week. No guarantees it'll last more than a day. But it's a start.

 

[intothelight]

It would be good to get caught up at least in one area.
Need to definitely spend more time enjoying the summer before it is over.
Trimming matted Newfs......definitely won't make dog grooming a profession.
Do I try bush hogging or hire it out? Looks like a supped up lawn mower.
Time goes way too fast any more.

 

[The Albatross]

1. Too much sleep makes me feel just as punky as not enough.
2. Staying outside the mom's fray... finally glad I'm out of it.
3. It is weird to see my pictures/art on the walls here now... but comforting.
4. Told the same joke to 4 people... they all laughed. It cheered me to hear them.
5. It is weird and wonderful to be "mostly fine".

 

[Anrish]

1. People looking forward to seeing me.
2. Me not looking forward to meeting certain people.
3. Lucky thing: Two different events.
4. It's too hot.
5. PIZZA!

 

[RavenGirl]

I think my body would go into SHOCK if the pain ever went away...
My chicks haven't hatched yet, I hope they live:chicken::chicken::chicken:
What is that ever elusive thing they call sleep and where can I get some!?
I need to start eating my salads again tomorrow
I feel I should call my parents but I'm not going to, I have enough stress Already.

 

[Lionheart]

Pain in hips and shoulders waking me up several times per night is getting really old.
I think it is due to my fibromyalgia.
I feel edgy but think I will eventually kick the smoking habit.
I'm planning a vacation....probably down in the Smoky Mountains.
I think an hour or two in a Jacuzzi would chill me right out.

 

[Deleted member 37474]

1. I haven't even taken a baby step improvement to how I view my worth in the workplace.

2. Nightmares involving forum friends is bizarre, especially since I don't know what they look like in real life.

3. Why on earth did they install showers in the kitchen of my college auxiliary house?

4. Think I will wear black to therapy tomorrow.

5. Trigger green is still very real in that store.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

1. dr in an hour...:cautious:
2. ..............:confused:
3. Supposedly fine....just a bundle of stress, I've to stop stressing and chill the f*ck out :p
4. Exhausted
5. Gotta nap more..............

 

[Tornadic Thoughts]

I wonder...do assholes recognize and thrive from their particular brands of assholery (like a life jacket/oxygen mask sort of scenario)....
...or...is it truly up to the recipients of said assholery to point it out every time it's unleashed....
...or...is it possible to keep honing in our own perceptions to easily deflect ALL forms of assholery, regardless...
...or...is the assholery purposely placed in our path as a gift of sorts by allowing LOTS of practice time in figuring shit out....
...or...are we, by any chance, simply on a long-running version of Candid Camera (or Punk'd) and there'll be someone popping out any minute now to let us know it's all been a silly pre-scripted joke?
Additional thought:..or...is it simply a tragically beautiful mix of all of the above?