5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Deleted member 29920]

I know, thanks @Ronin. 9 months now. When do I get MY life back? I keep trying to fight it but I am so torn :cry:

 

[Akhos]

1 - Im tired today - 3 hours of socialising has exhausted me
2 - Trying to play some games to relax, but im bored
3 - I miss you so much. I just want to make sure you are ok, but I know its not safe for me to do so
4 - Its cold, need to put heating on
5 - I just want to run away from everything.

 

[Ronin]

When do I get MY life back?

As of nine months ago.

Doesn't feel it, does it. But you -are- having your life back.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

No it doesn't feel it. It's so much more complex than I ever thought. I underestimated it, massively :(

 

[Ronin]

I'm calming myself about the similar that it's a -good- thing @LilLynx

It may be flooding. But it means you can think again. It means you mind you, instead of abusive partner, again. It means you're again refinding yourself, even if that yourself is different than where you left off before.

 

[Beans]

All this stuff works, but it's hard work.

 

[expectingbetter]

1. Having started recently to feel angry with many persons, learning about the feeling, tiptoe around it and checking the water, I think I really should keep working on the ability to feel it, I have plenty of reasons to, I just never learned how.
:notworthy::notworthy:
2. Feeling like I am torturing my Christmas tree how many days I am in great efforts to decorate it :unsure: still hasn't been finished
3. Missing certain friends
4. Very pleasant and successful day yesterday Ikea, it was opened for the first time in my country this year, I see it as a beautiful thing
5. @LilLynx I believe that I remember you once mentioned some delicious sweets you found in Ikea, I bought some yesterday and keep thinking whether I maybe bought the same, could you please tell me if you were the one having mentioned that :angelic:

 

[Deleted member 29920]

@Ronin I am still stuck with the trauma bonding, I know I need to find a way to break out of it.

@expectingbetter they are called Marabou and they are little round chocolates in a tube shaped packet? They are delicious, I haven't had them in years now, I love IKEA :inlove::hungry:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I got a surprise of three Christmas cards in my mailbox and a present now under my tree.:joyful::joyful::joyful:
I was surprised and very grateful to be reminded that there are people who care about me.:joyful::joyful::joyful:
A down day turned around and now is a good day.:happy::happy::happy:
I am celebrating my new fighting back spirit I found within myself today.:ninja::ninja::ninja::tup::tup::tup:
Take that my poor excuse of a daughter that commits treachory and betrayal:mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad::mad:

 

[Muttly]

1) Too easy to climb into myself and isolate
2) so much I should do but I cant seem to cope
3) I can never break the "rules" and have less than 5 thoughts
4) Maybe I should just go to bed?
5) Ah, third time reading it, it makes sense.

 

[jaccat]

I swear my mother appeared in my dreams last night. That hasn't happened in years.
I'm tired of waking up in pain, and waking in pain is making me tired.
Is it time to see someone about it? But if so, who?
It took me four days but I finally figured out what was at the root of my freak out over my therapist's suggestion.
It's been a long couple of days.

 

[Akhos]

Slept for 10 hours last night, still tired
No nightmares - cant remember any dreams actually
First person and the last person on my mind was the same person
Need to see doctor tomorrow about whether they still deem me unfit for work or not
A day indoors today I think