5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Deleted member 12723]

I just often feel stupid for ending up in the situations I ended up in :sour:

I think that you were simply trying to do the best with what you knew at the time and are being very hard on yourself today. You deserve to pat yourself on the back for doing so well in spite of everything:tup::hug:

 

[Deleted member 29920]

You're right, thanks @Rain :):hug:

 

[expectingbetter]

1. I am somehow feeling proud of myself which is a completely foreign feeling for me and it's just amazing :eek:
2. I have accomplished three very active and productive days :O_o:
3. I reacted twice recently putting my own needs first without feeling guilty :O_o::nailbiting::woot:
4. I am fighting SO hard, but trying to wish it to pass the best it could, those particular holidays are really triggering for me:notworthy::notworthy:
5. Praying for a peace tomorrow and a piece of luck, please :oops::x3:

 

[Beans]

-Finding productive ways to spend my time is difficult
-im feeling more normal than ever, but still too... whatever to be a "normie"
-i am healing, I am learning, i am growing, i am doing well, i am proud of myself
-i'm scared to call about my student loans
-in fact im scared to call about anything regarding my finances. avoidance makes the problem bigger
-the kitchen is so far away
-im excited to meet my goal weight this year. maintaining my 55lb loss was way easier than i realized. im so used to eating lower cals that maintanence cals felt like overindulgence! still have a ways to go, but i wont ever struggle with my weight again

 

[Beans]

- im ready for stability and routine
- im ready to give myself a home

 

[SeekingAfrica]

-Finding productive ways to spend my time is difficult
-im feeling more normal than ever, but still too.....

I would say if you haven't been having financials as a trigger for too long, and the student loans are the main issue, dig into the issue slowly next year.

From avoidance of one financial issue I had once, when I was young and scared to face it, over the years I developed for myself such financial trigger that it gets really bad. For example, I have X amount of work this month, and if I finish it I know I will be able to pay all my bills. But there is something bigger to pay in 3 months and I am not sure how to earn the extra money. The X work isn't too bad, so if I finish it on time, I will have time to find side project for extra income. But financial fear has become such a trigger, that I get panicked, and suddenly I'm doing my regular work 3 times slower because it's all I can manage...

Now I have a loot of financial stuff to separate and deal with...no savings, debts(not too bad but still). I would say if you can get a hang on it, the earlier the better, it can snowball...sorry for the unsolicited advice, I know dealing with issues and triggers is way harder than it sounds!

 

[SeekingAfrica]

1. I did ballet for an hour today, so at least I feel there is some point to the day
2. I am really not looking forwards to the new year
3. But hey, I am still here, and I can manage today
4. It's good to have a day off and replenish my batteries today, but it makes me feel guilty
5. What if I never feel any better than this?

 

[Crow]

1. Wtf? I was up again at 3:30am and have actually really cleaned my bedroom for first time in well over a year.
2. Moving on to other rooms.
3. The Fleetwood Mac channel on Prime is excellent.
4. Gonna do a closing ceremony for 2017 this afternoon.
5. Maybe I'll go get sparkling grape juice.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

I usually fall asleep before the bells so..

Happy New Year everyone! :singing::singing::singing::singing::singing::singing::singing::singing:

Hugs to all and best wishes for the year ahead

Good riddance 2017!

 

[Anrish]

1. Best New Year's Eve in times.
2. Long walk for the end of the year.
3. Spending quality time ...but also have to do my learning.
4. Happiness.
5. Self-made pizza!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am done getting the evidence of this old rotten year back into boxes and everything is dusted and tidy.:tup:
Enjoying some much needed normal.:happy:
Having an awesome day.:D:laugh:
So proud of myself for getting it done in record time.:tup:
Ready for tonight, maybe I will stay up to welcome in a brand new year.:wideeyed::woot::woot::woot::woot:

 

[Tinyflame]

I just often feel stupid for ending up in the situations I ended up in

Yep me too. Borrowed something without asking I tried to retrieve tonight and changed some plans to try and couldn't. Can't wait to start 2018 with WWIII when they find out today or tomorrow, likely in 8 hours. :meh: How foolish of me.
I hope I can sleep tonight, because I have to get up for work.