5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Lionheart]

I think I can.
I think and feel I can.
I believe I can.
I know I can.
I will.

 

[Rani G2]

Vulnerability is not a word I like
Never ever become weak, physically or mentally
Selfcare is Fine, and then when selfcare work is done.. I must fulfill my dreams they say. Who says?
Homo sapiens to homo Techno sapiens.
I thought I could brake out of the matrix. Silly me

 

[Abstract]

1. feeling a bit more grounded - looking back these 2 days post the procedure have been horrible.
2. I still go into denial when symptomatic. Will that ever change.
3. Feeling a bit crazy at present. Self perception wise. When know on one level have been doing well.
4. People are bittersweet to me. Its always complicated.
5. Other than post procedure I am making miraculous progress on a very long term problem. Wish I could feel a bit of pride rather than continued shame.

 

[Muttly]

Ooooh, @Abstract you had your procedure. I am sorry it's been so rough. Try to be gentle with yourself. And I feel pride you in your progress on the long term problem until you can.

1) I need to think carefully about basic coping skills and how to get onto steadier ground
2) I ate dinner and am going to have ice cream. Eating is one of those basic skills I want to work on
3) I need to contact tenant about paying rent. I am allowed to ask for rent. Even if her life is hard.
4) thought about the ex today. good thoughts
5) and last, but probably should have been first. I got the ob!!!!! I wish I was all over happier. I was earlier. really struggling with mental health stuff this week but getting the job *is* good news

 

[Abstract]

Thank you @Muttly Thats sweet of you. Yay re the job!!! ?

 

[Still Standing]

What am I thinking? Well..
1. I enjoy having my pup cuddled in my lap, feeling his warm body and watching him peacefully breathing as he sleeps.
2. I’m ticked at myself for further hurting my knee.
3. I don’t want more surgery.
4. I don’t want people in my house trying to take care of me. BLAH!!!! HUGE stressor!!!! ???
5. I hate being immobile.

 

[Tinyflame]

1. I am tired. Of running. Of fighting (internally).
2. Hugs to all.

 

[Rani G2]

Being sick is weakness she said/I say. Work against it
Must work on being more focused, I dislike being all over the place
Why am I fascinated with the Vulcans and the Borg
They come to the point, No bullshitting
Nervous, hectic people make me aggressive, they have no selfcontrol!. Yes, but what if they have Parkinson’s?

 

[Muttly]

@Still Standing Awww, aren't puppies the best? I'm sorry you hurt your knee. Is it for sure you need surgery?

1) I should get a fire going, it's very cold in this house
2) I wish I was around snow more this winter
3) I also need to eat.
4) My thumb/hand is doing much better but I should probably take it a bit easier on it
5) I can do this

 

[Teasel]

☆ Gonna miss Harry the neighbours cat ♡
☆ I'm still dysfunctional but less so.
☆ I have bought the first proper suitcase of my adult life. Ready to travel!
☆ Where do I wanna go?
☆ What do I wanna see?

 

[Muttly]

1) dear self, I know you are so tired you are having troubles moving at all, but we have to work so get going. You can rest tomorrow.... no.... ok friday.
2) I should try to show everyone how to work the lights at work before I leave
3) I need to get food in my body. why am I not eating?
4) if I was a shittier person I'd just call in sick
5) I should at least pack a lunch

 

[intothelight]

1. Every thing is OK for today.
2. Listen a minimum of twice more than you speak.
3. Smile more.
4. Move, move, move...
5. A bag of trash.