5 Things I'm Thinking Today

[Abstract]

I really thought I was fairly good at empathy and understanding people but want to give up trying at this point.
It may help if I really understood me.
Thought I was deluding myself but really don't like attention as much as the average person. And have to have it for my job. Yuck.
I need more authenticity in my life but fear would need to move to that desert island for that to be safe to do.
I have way more self hatred still lurking than I like to admit. Trouble is pretending stops one dealing with it.

 

[Ronin]

1) Food for babykid, food for me, again forgot the bananas. :facepalm:
2) Brain, u so behind. Learning to do implication with a clusterhell of, very passed, As. The B is: It does not matter, either we no relations, or they are out.
3) Dreaming of people that made me happy / were so much love, down to the scent of their hair, is just another circle of hell.
4) :speechless: until I am able to answer that friend with simple How are you's.
5) ... Symbolic > Flammable arrows. And :speechless: over T., because hate is basic bullshit, mea culpa for trying to make it work, for old times sake. Old lives are not meant to come back.

 

[NatBird]

what will this person or that person or that person think or that person make of this or or...
am I being incongruent
am I being perfectionistic which is another way of being self depriving
I am doing really well and practicing yes and no in the same breath
I can, one moment at a time look after myself

 

[Rani G2]

Fantasizing about an island, where I have a butler, a servant and a therapist.
This makes me feel so special, no other humans to compete with because I am always special then.
No one will subjugate me
Wait, what if the the butler or the servant decides to rebel?
I will need a good plan.?

 

[intothelight]

1. Making use of technology to help organize, hope it helps and doesn't become another task.
2. Mindfulness fosters patience, kindness and peace.
3. You're never to old to learn or change when you are really motivated.
4. Forgetting what the sun looks like, just a day or two here in weeks of gray.
5. Maybe I should start the plants for the garden

 

[Ronin]

Fantasizing about an island, where I have a butler, a servant and a therapist.

Ireland :sneaky:

True, that rec does nothing for your butler/servant/therapist loyalty issue, but small islands on sale, try Ireland.

 

[Rani G2]

but small islands on sale, try Ireland.

Woh Ronin... gonna look.

 

[TruthSeeker]

1. I love making clay animals! My heron looks cool!
2. I think my house sometimes is triggering, I should consider moving.
3. I’m waiting to see my therapist... hum, I had things to talk about- hum, forgot...no clue.
4. Gotta clean and do laundry before Tue

5. I’m outta bed and functional-this week!

 

[TruthSeeker]

Ireland :sneaky:

True, that rec does nothing for your butler/servant/therapist loyalty issue, but small islands on sale, try Ireland.

Your own island, butler and therapist- sounds delightful!!

 

[Jade-]

1.Why do I have so much anxiety about posting this?
2.Does it make me a failure that I have decided to start participating here again after so long?
3.Should I have just stuck with posting in my private journal here that nobody sees?
4.It's ok to reach out when I'm struggling,right?
5.Yes,it's not only ok but it's wise to do

 

[TruthSeeker]

I want a family-I lost mine...
I want my place to feel like home....it doesn’t.
I need to exercise a few times a week.
Traveling helps my blues.
I need to not use food for comfort.

 

[MrMoonlight]

-call dentist
-wash car
-do something about this migraine
-I'm not responsible for the decisions of others
-safe place, breathing and the rest of my board