A food thread - how are you doing with food?

[Kopykat]

I’m gonna keep it real here, I’m overweight but I don’t eat enough during the day. I am starting to eat more and am losing weight but food has always been an issue w me since I was a kid. We never starved but my family members had almost hoarding like behaviors I realize now and if we got like a “good” food or treat someone would hurry and eat it all the others couldn’t. Or people hid food. I usually eat once a day and that’s not good for you. I’m trying to add more stuff and started going to a weight loss clinic and stuff. I love cooking and baking but I have a weird relationship with it. And it’s very hard for me to tell when I’m physically hungry. I don’t know if any of this makes sense lol.

 

[sunshineandmoonshine]

Anxiety kills most of my hunger.
Plus subconscious starvation: I reject and deny what happened to me; in other words, I can't stomach it. Literally.

I love food and when I do have an appetite I let myself enjoy whatever I want to. I'm actually a bit of a foodie.

Soooo frustrated about not eating enough and not eating regularly. I lost about 20% of my body weight in the two years after the attack. I have regained about 5% but can't seem to get past that. I am well into the medically underweight category and get accused of being anorexic or purposefully trying to be this thin.
My family tells me "you don't eat enough!" "You're too skinny!" even when I'm eating normally. And even after I've told them multiple times that my PTSD interferes with eating and it's a real problem for me and a sore spot. They still just act like it's a matter of me choosing how much to eat.

It has always been hard for me to gain weight, but now it's hard to MAINTAIN weight.

I've read all your posts and maybe I'll try some of that stuff out.

Thanks mach123 for starting the thread. Definitely a big part of my struggle too.

 

[Mach123]

I am out of control right now a little about food. I'm within my 10 lb range still. I don't eat in the morning and live till noon at least on coffee. Afternoon I don't like to take coffee sleeping is hard enough. Coffee is great if I want to not eat though. I'm trying to live on salad now sort of, with some cheese and chicken thrown in. No desserts or anything even though I have a bag of Carmel cremes I don't eat them. Just one or two a few days a week when I really need something sweet.

 

[Changing4Best]

I'm doing a little better, by the grace of God, eating only during the day and evening, but not the deep nighttime eating I was doing.

 

[sunshineandmoonshine]

I don't have protein powder but last night I drank a huge glass of milk and tonight I just did the same, to supplement my too-minimal calorie intake...

 

[sunshineandmoonshine]

I'm interested to know/understand somatically what it feels like for those who eat more rather than less because of their PTSD.
With loving openness I ask.

 

[Daisy May]

Mach 123
I have taken omprazole for about 15 years and have been diagnosed with stage 3 kidney failure because of that med. I just wanted you to know so that does not happen to you so please be careful. I have been a very bad eater I usually eat once a day I'm just not hungry I have no appetite and I have been like this since I was little

 

[Stephani8o]

Emotional water here. I baked all weekend and then told myself I would buy new shoes if I lost ten pounds. I ate tacos but I'm looking forward to a cup of hot cocoa

 

[ms spock]

I joined Watch Watchers, and it has really helped me. I have found feeding myself well is really important, and feeding yourself well, with nourishing regular portion sizes does mean you don't binge eat as much. It really makes a difference. I have been listening to Brain over Binge podcasts, and they really helping me.

I am trying to get back to menu planning and organisation.