WillyKat
Diamond Member
Last night, I had a dream that turned into a nightmare and woke me up. Strangely, it had a healing aspect to it.
First, I was observing some kind of investigation. I was neither an investigator nor being investigated, just somehow a part of it. They (we?) learned that there was going to be a fire and it would involve where my wife was, which maybe was at work or at least involved where she worked.
I was camping somewhere alone and called her to tell her about the upcoming fire. She couldn't hear me because there was what seemed like a crowd of people yelling in the background. And typical of her, she was angry at me because she couldn't hear or understand.
Now her being angry at me for things that aren't my doing is a trigger for me. I started feeling triggered and hurt. At that point, I heard a growling noise. I thought it was a bear but when I looked, it turned out to be a wolf.
Here's the best part: I knew that if I was able to stand my ground and yell, it would keep back and not bother me. So I tried to yell, and I was actually able to make some noise for real, not in the dream. It was enough to sort of wake up my wife, who woke me up.
I realized how symbolic all of this was. The investigation is me trying to figure all of my stuff out. The fire is my wife driving herself very hard to the point where it affects her physical and mental health. It's nothing new and seems to be a family trait. The people yelling and making noise is the noise that's in her own life, her stress. She can't understand me because she's too full of her own stuff. Of course that's a trigger for me, which is threatening, and enter the wolf. And me finding my voice is ... well ... me finding my voice and fending off the wolf.
Despite the fact it was a nightmare of sorts, I'm feeling pretty good about it all.
First, I was observing some kind of investigation. I was neither an investigator nor being investigated, just somehow a part of it. They (we?) learned that there was going to be a fire and it would involve where my wife was, which maybe was at work or at least involved where she worked.
I was camping somewhere alone and called her to tell her about the upcoming fire. She couldn't hear me because there was what seemed like a crowd of people yelling in the background. And typical of her, she was angry at me because she couldn't hear or understand.
Now her being angry at me for things that aren't my doing is a trigger for me. I started feeling triggered and hurt. At that point, I heard a growling noise. I thought it was a bear but when I looked, it turned out to be a wolf.
Here's the best part: I knew that if I was able to stand my ground and yell, it would keep back and not bother me. So I tried to yell, and I was actually able to make some noise for real, not in the dream. It was enough to sort of wake up my wife, who woke me up.
I realized how symbolic all of this was. The investigation is me trying to figure all of my stuff out. The fire is my wife driving herself very hard to the point where it affects her physical and mental health. It's nothing new and seems to be a family trait. The people yelling and making noise is the noise that's in her own life, her stress. She can't understand me because she's too full of her own stuff. Of course that's a trigger for me, which is threatening, and enter the wolf. And me finding my voice is ... well ... me finding my voice and fending off the wolf.
Despite the fact it was a nightmare of sorts, I'm feeling pretty good about it all.
