J
just me here
Daydream and disociation are 2 very different things for me. Biggest differance is that I cannot self trigger a disociative event, I can instigate a daydream or even seperate myself from reality by checking into a zone like your husbands combat mode or my EMT on scene mode or my looking for an escape from a bad guy mode.
disociation and flashbacks just happen, I am in them before I know it and can't get back without first realising where I am and that it isn't real (maybe currently happening is better than 'real'). I often wake up in a flashback, I think because my sub-c is always willing prey to the inner demons but my waking mind is more resilient and wary of the paths I don't want to go down.
Daydreams are great, I often get so involved I am totally unaware of my surroundings. I will get so involved in designing a part for a machine I am working on that I will be visualising the fits and requirements of the part in my mind while staring blankly at the actual machine torn apart on my bench. I was designing a remodel once and found myself staring at the very wall that I was trying so hard to remember the general locations of outlets and lightswitches on.
But that is, no matter how deep or removed from the premisis I can get, not ANYTHING like waking to the sound of a car wreck and wondering if I can walk or even find my way back to the road in this darkness, wheres the pain? there has to be some pain coming- I need light, I need my cellphone, I need to help the other driver- panic panic panic!
And I can't stop it until it shakes me loose, and it always leaves me with the full load of adrenaline that I got during the actual event. Try going back to sleep after waking up in the middle of a fight for your life or doing CPR on a patient that isn't going to make it with a fully involved fight or flight reaction in full gallop. It aint happening, not without some hard to learn relaxation techniques and lots of practice and patience for my failed attempts.
Similar things but I think it is a question of degrees and ability to control the entry and exit of the "break from reality". My deepest daydreams are nothing compared to my most superficial of flashbacks or disociations (in the sense of PTSD disociations).
disociation and flashbacks just happen, I am in them before I know it and can't get back without first realising where I am and that it isn't real (maybe currently happening is better than 'real'). I often wake up in a flashback, I think because my sub-c is always willing prey to the inner demons but my waking mind is more resilient and wary of the paths I don't want to go down.
Daydreams are great, I often get so involved I am totally unaware of my surroundings. I will get so involved in designing a part for a machine I am working on that I will be visualising the fits and requirements of the part in my mind while staring blankly at the actual machine torn apart on my bench. I was designing a remodel once and found myself staring at the very wall that I was trying so hard to remember the general locations of outlets and lightswitches on.
But that is, no matter how deep or removed from the premisis I can get, not ANYTHING like waking to the sound of a car wreck and wondering if I can walk or even find my way back to the road in this darkness, wheres the pain? there has to be some pain coming- I need light, I need my cellphone, I need to help the other driver- panic panic panic!
And I can't stop it until it shakes me loose, and it always leaves me with the full load of adrenaline that I got during the actual event. Try going back to sleep after waking up in the middle of a fight for your life or doing CPR on a patient that isn't going to make it with a fully involved fight or flight reaction in full gallop. It aint happening, not without some hard to learn relaxation techniques and lots of practice and patience for my failed attempts.
Similar things but I think it is a question of degrees and ability to control the entry and exit of the "break from reality". My deepest daydreams are nothing compared to my most superficial of flashbacks or disociations (in the sense of PTSD disociations).
