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Just feeling so confused and very emotional. Yesterday I got very angry and it scared me, I haven't felt that angry for a good while. I think that the nightmares have been taking it's toll on me to be honest yet I feel disconnected to my emotions which is making them hard to process. I felt very off yesterday and today. I can feel depression, anger, anxiety and sadness. I got angry in a food que, a guy jumped in front of me and I stormed off feeling angry, like I didn't exist. I have been feeling paranoid about my partner and that he will leave me. I feel so emotional, especially with animal programmes. I sit and cry at them being hurt and killed. I feel so anxious at night time and now it's turning in to all day anxiety!!. I just don't feel joy or satisfaction from achieving anything and if I do it is very short lived, everything is hard work right now.
I don't see my parents anymore. They disowned me 2 years ago because they found out that I had told somebody about the childhood abuse that I suffered from them. It hurts and makes me feel angry, it makes me sad but I am better off without them.
I am 6 months clean now from drug abuse and yet it doesn't seem to matter anymore. I get obsessed with stuff, now I am obsessed with my weight and exercise.
I feel run down. Keep getting mouth ulcers..... It's all a big mixed bag here. I have been feeling so triggered for a while now and it's brought my mood right down. I just don't know how to drop this perfect image of how I want myself to be.
I need to except myself and my limited life due to mental health problems yet I want to be like everybody else!!!! Or I thought I did!!. I haven't been able to work for over 10 years now. I feel confused about wanting chdren, I have also got problems with my cervix and a high cancer risk. I am awaiting more test results for that.
It's stress, stress, stress.
I need to find a way of sorting through this all and relaxing!'
I don't see my parents anymore. They disowned me 2 years ago because they found out that I had told somebody about the childhood abuse that I suffered from them. It hurts and makes me feel angry, it makes me sad but I am better off without them.
I am 6 months clean now from drug abuse and yet it doesn't seem to matter anymore. I get obsessed with stuff, now I am obsessed with my weight and exercise.
I feel run down. Keep getting mouth ulcers..... It's all a big mixed bag here. I have been feeling so triggered for a while now and it's brought my mood right down. I just don't know how to drop this perfect image of how I want myself to be.
I need to except myself and my limited life due to mental health problems yet I want to be like everybody else!!!! Or I thought I did!!. I haven't been able to work for over 10 years now. I feel confused about wanting chdren, I have also got problems with my cervix and a high cancer risk. I am awaiting more test results for that.
It's stress, stress, stress.
I need to find a way of sorting through this all and relaxing!'