Sufferer Addicted To Trauma!

[EvenStrongerNow]

Hi all Keith here.

I am hopelessly addicted to truama, this last frontier is the childhood emotional and physical deprivation I experienced- then as a young boy looming to have that filled outside the home I was preyed upon and raped and sexually abused .

I am now at place where the other addictive traumas I picked up along the way have been arrested one day at a time .

I am looking to begin a 12 step based fellowship for others who can realte to the addiction of trauma- in anyway shape or form.

Gimme a shout I you wanna talk more about this possibility may we be free from the suffering from our traumas!'

It doesn't sound like he said he was raped because he wanted to be. It sounds like he is saying that he has his own method of recovering from the effects and repetitive behaviors in his current life.

 

[Justmehere]

@Keith

I am kind of stepping into this thread at an awkward place. I do think we have all gotten to know a little about you, and this thread has been successful as an introduction thread. It also did create a fair amount of drama... I hate that word - drama - but I don't know a better fitting one in this moment. I don't use the word drama in a pejorative sense, but in the sense of controversy and uproar and lots of intense reactions and feelings.

I would say that you are addicted and/or compelled to repeat trauma in the way that you define trauma. This thread itself is an example. Look at all that your introduction thread stirred up. I don't know if you expected or intended for your post to stir people up like this. I do really wonder if you were compelled to stir things up here on a subconscious level or something...

Your words also reminded me of that song by Black Eyed Peas...

"What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin'
In the USA, the big CIA..."

I'm not really making any points at all or anything. Not sure any of this is a good idea to write or post... That song just kept coming to mind.

I just was noticing that for an introduction thread, for someone who posted as his introduction that he is addicted to trauma, your own introduction thread seemed to bring on a lot of intense stuff around you. Was it your fault? I do think you played a role here and are missing that role you have had in this thread stirring people up, and that it is ironic, especially considering how you introduced yourself.

Side note: I don't think the forum has traumatized you or anything like that in the sense of how many people here on the forum would define trauma, nor in the sense that you would define it. That's not what I'm saying at all. I am also NOT saying trauma is fault of the victim. It just isn't.

I know that I repeat traumas and have trauma re-enactments in my life in small and big ways, and something about this who thread feels re-enacting-ish to me. I don't know why. (Maybe it is just me putting my own stuff on to another person. Is that projection?)

Anyhow, I'm sort of an awkward duck around here... just wanted to share my perspective on the thread, and I wanted to welcome you to the forums. From your initial post, sounds like you have been through a lot.